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Posted 04-18-2009 at 06:24 AM by girasol
Updated 04-18-2009 at 06:40 AM by girasol

I'm worried about robot. It seems that he is having a great time since we cut up our friendship but I know that when I was hurt and did my 180 turn to partying all the time, immitating John by being pissed 7 days a week and making best friends with every new friend I made - I was not ok. I was fucked up and ruined a lot of things. I fucked up my units, made too many friends to make sure I had no real ones, got fatter and insecure and ...just screwed things up big time. I hope that he sees the light and doesn't collapse even though I won't ever put my reservations aside for people like him again. So much for drunken trashy open minded fun. And so much for the long d&ms on how he understood how much I hated sleaze. -_-

I have successfully made myself angry all over again.
I want to know exactly how they are distributing the stimulus package. It isn't because I haven't got mine yet- it is because... I don't think it is in alphabetical suburb order. Whoever told me it was by suburbs was wrong. If that were the case I know two people who have recieved theirs and I should have recieved mine by now. I don't actually want it right now because I am scared of having a sum of money placed in my account when I am so broke. After wednesday is fine though. I dream of wednesdays as soon as it is thursday But this time I will be comfortably sorted thanks to easter. - I am now over my obsession with hot cross buns and I have a box full of chocolate. Its disgusting. Please take it away.

Its a great opportunity to go find new music when you lose all of your collection and probably teaches me a lesson - either burn everything onto cds or buy them all and burn copies - and NEVER lend it to people without writing it down. I am paranoid and even a bit pathetic because I feel ashamed of going into a music store to replace my music... I don't want them to think I am just getting into bands that I have loved for ages... It is almost a pride issue. If I get a book and hate it I have to hide it if anyone visits me. Not that it happens often. I never invite people over. I don't like people inspecting my things. I don't know whether it is because I am paranoid or don't trust but it is annoying as I guess this is how a lot of people bond with friends...? meh.
I am bored of writing because I was bored and my mouth tastes horrible.
I am going to be a gym junkie soon - I now have tracksuit pants!
Speaking of junkie - I have noticed a lot of my friends on pills and speeding pretty much every weekend. I am not an angel in this sense but I am starting to resent having to deal with random bitchy fits or regularly-sick-and-must be-taken-care-of situations. Also annoyed that I have blacked out 3 times this year not remembering what I have supposedly said or done for hour long periods when I ahve been out - and at those times I was not on anything. Just terribly terribly smashed. Maybe there is something wrong with me apart from going overboard.
I guess I wasn't that bored of writing
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