[Solumina]

My brother, my mom, and her boyfriend are coming out for Thanksgiving, they will be staying for a 6 days but Erik is the only one staying with us. I know it isn't a big deal, I mean the biggest things that I'm doing is cooking a meal for five people, I do that shit all the time, but it is Thanksgiving so I'm putting a lot of unnecessary pressure to get everything perfect. I keep bouncing between knowing that I'm really pretty much prepared for their visit and thinking "holey fuck this apartment is a wreck, I should be ashamed for people to see it, there is no way I can do this, I still have a zillion things that must be done my Monday or else their visit will be a disaster", and at the moment I'm being completely neurotic to the point were I can't even focus on what needs to get done and so I'm doing nothing.

Fuck this shit, why am I always like this when expecting company?