[KontanKarite]

Occam's Razor would conclude that you suffer delusions. I've been through what you've been through. I used to think there were ghosts and all sorts of crazy shit going on. But at the end of the day, it was all power of suggestion. You define soul in a sense as if in some way we have somewhere to go after we die. But that's far too unlikely to give any credence to it. We are not terminal and transcendent balls of blue light.

Don't deny your feelings, but don't assume that what you feel is in some way supernatural. You do realize that your feelings and emotions are chemical reactions. Doesn't make them any less important, but they certainly aren't the domain of what you call "the soul".