Shit's tough. I know how it is. I know how I've had it worse than others, and others have had it worse than me. That makes me sick.
You know who has all the answers?
Don't get mad at me. I'm totally serious.
Tupac Shakur. Look at his song titles--a lot of them are the answer in themselves. Life Goes On, for one.
I once told someone that you don't need hope to go on, because shit goes on without you, without hope. Life does indeed go on. But you can find hope in that, and in that the more wisdom you accumulate, at least you'll be helping people. You might have to deal with more of the weather than others, so to speak, but not only are you tougher for it, but your experiences spread the seeds of hope and enlightenment to others.
Don't worry. You won't break down. It's really hard to kill someone--easy, too, but at the same time, remakably difficult--all you need to do is continue. You cannot fail an action that you've not not completed.
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