I'd suggest talking about it with trusted people, family & friends ..
Or us .. we're 'faceless' .. all anonymity preserved
Personally, I'm a big believer in bringing yourself comfort.
Only you know how you're feeling, in turn only you know how to ease.
Be gentle with yourself, there's no rules regarding ..
They say time heals, and truthfully in a way it does.
With every passing day you move further away from that experience of loss.
You will always love them; eternally miss them .. it does get easier.
There will come a time when memories aren't so painful to recall.
You will smile fondly, instead of feeling crippled with grief and bereft.
I hope your poor heart eases <3
Much love to You xxx