Sounds like you're dealing with some pretty hardcore grief there. No one can give you a definite answer because there isn't one. Every one goes through it differently.
If you're anything like me, it will be a while before things don't feel wrong all the time anymore. There will be some time while you hurt deeply and darkly, there's no way to stop it and nothing to make it go away before its time.
From what I gather from my own experiences and observations of others, the desire to run, to move away after the death of a loved one is very common. Unless you are unhappy with your surroundings themselves it's a good idea to stay put and not stress yourself further with a move.
Let yourself feel the way you do, grieve. Remember him, go through all the times you had together, contemplate your relationship and what it meant.
Before you know it, you will wake up one day with hope creeping into your heart like sunshine on an early spring day.
*hugs* It sucks so much to lose someone close. I hope you heal well.
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