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very alone
I'm so lonely.
sometimes I walk down busy streets (i live in queens) and see the posters and pictures of things, the bright lights now that it's christmas time
and I feel like I'm trying to squeeze so hard into a world I don't fit in
My spirit says no! You are a part of this world, any world
you are here where you are for a reason, but I just don't know
my boyfriend and I broke up too. It was for the best but it makes me feel like no one cares... we were together for 2 years... we never had sex (for many reasons) but we truly loved each other, I thought.. we would share a bed together, and stay up all night talking
but then I felt him pulled away-- like he didn't want to live in the world we made together any more
he wanted to live in the world with other people
the world where I don't fit
has anyone ever felt that way?
If you havent, I am jealous; if you have I am sad for you but at least I'm not by myself here
and to bed... another day...
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