[Sinjob]

Thank God for reddit and MEMES.

Gothicus literally never communicated with me on my posts and then tried to become some ambassador of the site, slandering what was a confused kid who was severely depressed and lost. He was fucking annoying, the worst complex of the twink is what he is. Worse than Marilyn Manson. I really have more hate and little patience for a pussy like that than I would for Oafeelia or that White Trash Fire Crotch bellydancer. He once even tried to validate and deem me in his faggy little way and I was just not going to take it.
Fuck you, kid. You will never be an internet sensation. Goth is way too out and you have to actually be funny.
I was always the one in the wrong and I kissed ass as Vyvian even to those who mocked me in the depths when I had no room to defend myself.

*=footnote: if you are about to quote me and slam me for my choice of words or propose I am all self pity, please remember this IS a goth site.

So I came back, after making a half-serious effort to just start over and be myself without cyber confrontation, to troll even though I was spouting many passive aggressive opinions I was in life. Yeah, drugs are a big part of this. Of course even then I still got shit for just saying the wrong things, which I totally am guilty of.

I have been a few different, lesser known problems during my drug binges spanning from 2010 to 2012 sporadically coming on here. I won't reveal quite which personalities I was, but none of them really caught on. I mean there will never be another Duckman. Pure genius. I want to collaborate with BiPolar Joe in Ireland.

Some of you people on this site made me wanna actually become a school shooter, but for my 'own kind' as I once saw it. Thankfully I discovered pot.

I realized the error and contradictory of my entire self and ways at that boarding school, and though I love goth music I definitely could suck anymore of that black smoke, ass-backwards pretentiousness that makes up the goth scene now. They all fucking suck because they listen to that Cleopatra Records bullshit. Fucking murdered good goth music. Goth is even more of a joke now because we have crap like the Cruxshadows and basically Lorde in charge of it. It's either hipsters trying to be ironic [big surprise] digging sonic graves or just another fucking synth band who look the part.

I mean, I was more of an acid head than anything at that point [high school, 16]. I went from trying way too hard as a goth to trying hardly at all as a person. Since being released from boarding school I was beginning to dabble into all sorts of great drugs, but that led me to being sent to an entirely different exile-rehab. Four times strong and three times back on drugs. Stronger the better.

I often question, resist, and over work myself just behind the template that's always mocked me with the awful emoticons. There are so many things I read now in virtually every post that either just sucking it's own cock or fucking itself in the ass from a subculture that is truly unique just composed of so many dirty diapers.

But fuck it dude I'm still Goth as Fuck [exclusive in joke for the Elder Goths and Eldrithches here] because according to my girlfriend I'm the darkest person she's ever dealt with. I'm an artist, a musician, a writer, a poet-those were the labels I should have understood as important is my own point.

This website can be very strange. And enriching. Perfect for the voyeur.

Even if Gnet didn't remain and really never was the 'bone chilling literature' forum it was intended to be (I mean dude those stories are just BAD writing even for contemporary, pretentious, pseudo-intellectual spook porn) we wrote our own unsettling tales.

The real stories aren't on the fiction here, they're in this forum.
p.s. I was pothead