It's really frustrating to have your personality dampened, confined and judged.
All that you are doing is expressing yourself, using your creative voice ...
I wish that your father could respect your desire and need to do so.
By curbing you, he's asserting his authority as a parent ...
The whole "Not under my roof!" palaver .. round and around it goes!
For a quiet life, I'd suggest attempting a subtle approach?
I.E. music listened to via headphones, limit posters etc that may trigger.
Try to walk a fine line? Don't rub is face in it, maybe change your clothing and diversify after leaving the home, alternate back before re-entering?
This is solely to attempt some alleviation for you ..
Don't know how you'd actually feel about leading a 'double life'
As a teen, I walked this path .. was easier than constant criticism!
When you leave the family home environment you can spread your wings and fly .. for now you need to ascertain what to do about this current situ ...
I feel it's really getting to you, irking you .. it sucks to be undermined!
There's 2 options, the 'fuck you, this is ME' option. A hard path.
Or option #2, I bide my time, for now.
The Gothic nature is, I feel, internal. But hell it's nice to express it outwardly.
I wish things were easier for you. Know that you are respected here (x)