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Old 04-20-2012, 06:38 AM   #2
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no... no I can't win this one. I told MrBat tonight that I was shattered into a million tiny pieces and that I was over holding it together, over changing for everyone else, over all the shit and crap and stuff.

over living with:

the fact that my parents really couldn't have given a rats ass about me,

the year of abuse I had a school in year 4 - because the teacher was such a 'great guy' and his abuse of me was just 'who he was' and my parents couldn't be bothered to get me out of that school.

over the decade of abuse by my ex,

of allowing others to treat me like shit,

of falling in a heap and trying to get back on my feet, rather than living life on my knees,

of trying to keep on going forward when all I want to do is disassociate for awhile..

Dunno what's going to happen, but maybe I can find my way back to some sort of new normality or whatever.

Gotta love disassociation... it rocks..

And there we have it... a brief history of the life of a totally fucked up fruitbat.
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