Welcome to my first post here. Greetings to everyone here. Wanted to say hi. Be bless. Later

October 5th 2010 -

I am partially home schooled and partially on campus.I have packets for homework, they have day 1, day 2 , day 3, etc. I just do day 1 for math , science , history , high school exit exam , marine biology, and child development.I hate going to school lol, the kids there are so annoying it pisses me off, they think I'M the freak because i'm in black and not neon like those idiots.But my mom insists I go on campus to "be more socalized" and "Make friends"...

You know how theres that one person in your life who you utterly hate, and everytime you see them , or something reminds you of them, you just wish theyd dissappear? well dont. think about it: if you had neevr met that person, they never couldev affected your life at all. "thats the point" you say, but slow down a second and turn that boiling pot of hate down to a simmer...if you had never met them, experianced whatever they made you experiance, have it turned out lik eit did, and effect...

i would really really enjoy having a clear concious for just a short period of time..but then i just keep on running into you and i just cant keep from making a fool of myself. you do nothing to help the situation, but your just you i guess. im so fucking paranoid when i interact with you i just...i dont know. i want to erase time..go back a while and redo everything i just said to you..everytime...God i just cant bear myself after the fact either. its this feeling i just cant deal with,and no matter...

i just hate this. theres no other way to describe it. you treat me so childishly over these things! you never look at it my way, and thats because its just not you....but us, being the way we are, it'd be nice once in a while. itd be nice not to be below you, knocked over by you, pushed around and utterly discarded by you..for once. i want to win just once. this one time, this ONE time....its really important to me, but you cant see that. our goals are the same, its all in who is more....you. its...