Calm night.
Posted 04-27-2010 at 10:14 PM by Malicious Insanity
Today has been the first day I have felt sane in a long time. I finally got a visit from Mary. Her calming thick breath was all I needed. My mental monsters have quieted and the pain has vanished. I hope Mary visits again soon.
On another note; I have decided to not kill myself. It turns out that there is someone that genuinely cares for my well being and I do not wish them any form of harm. Even if it means I must put up with myself for a little while longer, then so be it. I am going to try my hardest to keep the voice of doubt at bay. Ultimately it is my many mental "voices" that ruin any relationships that I rarely form.
It feels good to breath. It is such a rainy beautiful night. I am going for a walk.
On another note; I have decided to not kill myself. It turns out that there is someone that genuinely cares for my well being and I do not wish them any form of harm. Even if it means I must put up with myself for a little while longer, then so be it. I am going to try my hardest to keep the voice of doubt at bay. Ultimately it is my many mental "voices" that ruin any relationships that I rarely form.
It feels good to breath. It is such a rainy beautiful night. I am going for a walk.
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i dunn0 wat to say...i like the way u think i dunn0 why...but ur sad, depressed, in pain thoughts its juz that i dunn0....
and yea it feels g0od to live specially if u know someone loved nd cared for u....^_^Posted 07-08-2010 at 08:23 PM by comatose 
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[QUOTE=comatose;bt828]i dunn0 wat to say...i like the way u think i dunn0 why...but ur sad, depressed, in pain thoughts its juz that i dunn0....
and yea it feels g0od to live specially if u know someone loved nd cared for u....^_^[/QUOTE]
I do not understand what you are trying to say but I am judging by the "^_^" face that you are pleased with my entry. Thank you very much for your support, M'dear.Posted 07-26-2010 at 12:11 PM by Malicious Insanity
