My lovely mother...again.
 

Threw me out of the house. As if I wouldn't have done it myself if I knew I could rent an apartment, pay for it, not feint because I haven't eaten for a week and keep learning (I'm 17).


I'm worried about my sisters, the bitch manipulates the hell out of them. If it wouldn't have destroyed any connection I might have with them, and the vary important lesson of being self-aware I thought them today, I would've gladly hit the hell out of her. She did it enough to me, both in words and physically (mostly in words, she's too cowardish to actually hurt me in a way that can be noticed by others on purpose) so I can honestly say I have the full privilege to do so.

Anyway, I have a blind cat here to take care of, I seriously think about just anaesthetize her to death, because it's the most uncruel cruel death I can think of. I asked the vet about giving her to any association for cats or animals, but he said they usualy don't give a damn about the poor animals and they are held in horrible conditions. I guess he knows what he's speaking about...

And there's the Grand Questiong of "What now?"
I don't really have a place to go, I can't rent an apartment and keep studiyng...It's insane... And there's the cat.

Well, any ideas?

Do you have any friends or relatives you can stay with?

Get a part time job to earn money to pay for rent ( even if just staying with friends)

Or you could put your studying on hold for a while, get a full time job and come back to your studying at a later date when you have a place to live and money to live on.( beggars can't be choosers so don't get too snotty about the type of job you do, it's to earn money until you can sort yourself out, you can try for something more enjoyable later )

You aren't going to do very well at studying whatever it is if you have nowhere to live, no money and are worrying about everything. That's just pointless, get yourself sorted and leave your studies for some other time. You have your whole life to study things, but right now you need a home and cash to live on. It's a matter of priorities and common sense.

It's my last year. I have around 3-4 months to learn, and then I can go wherever I want (probably live with friend in Jerusalem, maybe rent an apartmen with them and me partnet), and since I have chronia headaches and missed quite a lot of lessons already, I can't efford it to myself.
Besides-I'll have to find a place in which I'll be sure no one will fool me and pay me less than what he ows me. It already happened before, so I have np idea where to start...

She can't physically throw me out of the house, at least (I'm stronger than her physsicaly and doing it will ruin her "tortured saint" image.) so I'll leave only when I have somewhere to put the cat in, and some place to go to.

All I can say is desperate situations lead to desperate measures. A Chilean friend of mine, who has been an orphan since the age of 2. He ended up with abusive foster parents at the age of 5, and made it from Chile to Luxembourg at the age of 13 with bugger all money, If I remember correctly, he had the equivalent to 300€, all of which had come from selling narcotics.

It's not very optimistic....I hope I'll be able to find a better way out.

Yeah, maybe you'll have something interesting to write a poem about.

Ooo, gurl. You live in that middle east! Y'all gonna die wit' no crackhouse to live in! I had heard that them curzy people be bombing each other for fun!

I feel sorry for you since you can only wear that big cloth that only shows your eyes. It don't even look cute!

Funny as hell, I think I just cried one of those eyes out, as a result of laughing too hard.

Yer mom sounds like a cool chick.

And yet, I'm so f-u-cking lucky I don't go to cut my wrists because a little kid who can't even have a conversation at eye level with another person told me how horrible my writing skills are.

I don't get it. Are you implying that I'm short or something? I'm 6'1, love, I could crush you into a paté with my cock and there wouldn't be enough to spread over my chiselled torso.

Coming from someone who's lived on the move (mine was by choice though), it's not as bad as it's made out to be, you just need to be resourceful. Find someone else who can't afford to make ends meet, and go in on an apartment together. Public aid is usually pretty easy to get, not sure what Israel's system is like though.

Here you go. Good luck.

http://www.scribd.com/doc/390255/Tec...nal-Pickpocket

Israel's public aid system sucks. I had this conversation with my social worker (with whom I keep in touch to make sure I'll get an apartment\enough money to rent one from the army), there's no chane I'll get anything before I'm 18, or at all.

Mine's half by choice-I planned doing it. 4 months later than I have to.
Well, thanks anyway.

I'm not the most social being on earth, but seems like there's no choice-A friend just called me to say I can forget about renting an apartment by myself, it costs damn too much.

Metaphorically (it sounds better in Hebrew either way), you dumbass.

Made me smile.

Weakness is your armour-
You use it to hide
Your thoughtlessness
Your lousy Nothingness.
Without it-
you are absoulutely No-ne,
You'd better not exist at all.

Yo, this chicken is bomb.

JCC stop lying about your size. That picture that you posted of yourself just showed a scrawny, undersized runt so stfu. Noirette, please beat the shit out of this wemo ****** nao.

Check it out, Necrophagist just admitted he's a fat dick.

JCC, we all already know that you've got nothing to say so you copy my shitty poetry.

Do yourself a favour-Shut up and stop making a fool out of yourself. I know how hard it might be for you, but please, do your best.

Sick diss, I was upset until I remembered that I have a house.

Your sense of humor is so low it actually made me laugh about your stupidity.

You are aware that JCC isn't even trying and is quite positively crushing your petty insults?

too bad, it makes him look just...pathetic.

I find it funny.