Strange October
 

I wish you were here
my lover, I told you
that I love you so
and oh love, I want to
not just because I
need your love
but because
you need me too

lovely lonely man
I'm not afraid
of the wolf in the dark
shadows and strangers
and you can't hurt me
or at least I say so

because I long to
know my own sins
so let's press our bodies
against the gate
pretend this love
was handed by fate

your key in my hand
making a soft landing
I would wake in clouds
oh but the pain of
suffering, can it
feel like more
than two empty people
making love in October
to keep warm?

I shouldn't be writing this
because I feel
like I should be telling you
that you are really real
so don't worry hon
that I lost my mind
there was something there
that was too hard to find

I'm only one
just one stupid girl
in a very confusing world
If only I could help you
stand proud before
everyone who contradicted
and never let the
curtains fall over this gift
when I wanted to be wrong
just for a day
but you helped keep
pain so far away

If I could love you
well, maybe I could
maybe I do...
and maybe
my original sin is that
I know it might be true.

What do I do
what am I
losing when
I say I need a little darkness
a little unfamiliar pain

an unfamiliar hug in the strange
October rain

So my honey
let's watch the moon wave
goodbye...
hold me under as you
close your eyes
it's always darkest
before the sun rise.
and I hope to rise.

You dragged me in
twisted my soul
and now when you're gone
I'm in the blood
letting everything
consume me...