he is dead help
 

my best freind i have knowen for years start keeping things from me and than he started to do things he didnt do before.I found he was being bullied but by the time i found out i killed himself.and i was the one who found him.i than found the bullies and i losed it i hit them and kept hitting intill there was blood all over my hands.and before my freind killed about a week before i sew him in a dream i sew him killing himself and once he was dead i have a dream of him killing himself.and now im scared to go to sleep and i now want to kill myself.wat should i do

well, first off. Don't Kill yourself. What would that solve?

secondly, talk to some one. need it be a counciller, a parent, a sibling or another friend, talking helps. Sure internet people will help some.... but there is a lack of personal acknowledgement online.

Wow, I know how that feels, because I've been in so many similiar situations. But forget about me, this is about you, and you created this thread for help.
What I can offer is that its best not to kill yourself. That would show that you can't handle it, and I know that you have that will to handle the problem. What you did to the bully wasn't wrong at all, in fact, he should have gotten a LOT worse, so I applaude you for that.
Anyway, don't kill yourself, talk about this problem, write it down, don't let your thoughts build up inside, let them out too. If you can't share them, at least write them down because its too much for a heart to carry (I would know).
What else I can offer is a bit of peer-to-peer conversation, because I've helped at least a dozen kids with their problems and saved at least two of their lives. Talk with me, and I'll do what I can....if you have AIM, my screen name is
Lord Dagon 5
....if not, e-mail me, Lord_Dagon_@************
I want to help, and if possible, make you feel better. Consider what I told you, please get better. I wish you the best for you, good fellow...

I don't think he (or she) is. It takes time to recover from stuff like that...I just hope Riddick doesn't kill himself (herself)....

I don't know about you, but I'm kind of scared for Riddick.
He hasn't posted anything since that post, and now I'm beginning to think he actually went through with it without reading this. This is kind of freaky....

Well, a mental institution is much better than home alone where there is temptation...but an enormous chill went down my spine when I read this thread, and it wont leave......maybe I'll go see his profile and try to contact him, if possible....

No, its not possible to e-mail him...he didn't post it...maybe I'll ask an administrator....

im fine ive just got stuff to sort out thats all

i have seen a doctor and he is helping me.

Hmm, dos that mean you wont need me?
Its fine, as long as you're okay...I still applaude you for the bully beating.....

i sew the bullies today and me and my mates are makeing they're lives hell

Heh, that's the spirit!
But of course, if it goes to trial, you have to be absolutely sure that the suicide was the bullies's fault...e-mail me so I can give you some advice (not that I know much) on how to win a law case....I won my first trial (not according to the gay-ass jury) fair and square, but the votes were based on popularity of the clients and attorneys...I even made a thread about it somewhere in this section....

Cool.it was theyre felt because it said in his note

That's the perfect evidence, but they might try to question if he wrote it, and sometimes attorneys are severely smart....

PS- Are you going to e-mail, then?

Ummm....... If the jury (Regardless of their asses sexual preference) says that it's a deadlock... YOU DIDN'T WIN.
and just because you have done ONE case and *ALMOST* WON... does not give you any sort of insight to any real legal matters.

And as a note to the Gay-Ass Comment. It's offensive and immature. I realize that your only a kid, but even my nephew realizes that Homophobia and discrimatory slang is offensive... and he is 5.

I don't want to be rude... or to come across as an asshole.... but think before you speak dude.... It'll spare you the tounge-lashings from Xng and them.

well if he dont write the letter than i dont know why esle he would.and i might email but my email isn't working

Heh.....you speak true words, and I know I don't know much at all (almost nothing, in fact), but I'm just starting....heh....you bitch because you love?
I'll think from now on....I'm kind of lost, is all...

a mate i dont care wat you put to tell the truth your trying to help me.and i o you one for that

Thanks, maybe I'll ask my law teachers on their ways to win a case, since they've been in that business for 30 years now, and they were attorneys...good ones....