You know, it could be easier...
 

I can really take a hint, you know. I can. The slight distance you set between us. The strange glances you give me when I'm only being sweet to you.

I know we must have fallen asleep around 3 or 4 in the morning and I wake to find you gone before 8 in the morning. My intuition is driving me mad. Do what you want, I never wanted to hold you down in any way. Just be open and be honest with me. But you leave without even saying goodbye. Apparently some thing's wrong if you have to leave in secret.

I felt it anyway. I felt or could tell in some subtle way that you were pushing me away. You could have just said something.

You know, all I ask is that you be honest with me. To not hold your thoughts back or your observations. That's all I ask. Be honest with me and if I still like you, I'll be your little slut. I will make you feel nice, respect you and your boundaries, I would hold you and your feelings in the utmost regard. Even if it meant that for some strange reason, you find that you can't stand me. I prefer truth. The truth hurts, yes. But this dodge avoidance and need to be away from me as soon as possible and getting it through shady means FUCKING HURTS! I wont apologize for who I am.

God damn I hate mixed messages. Don't put forth an overbearing effort to see me if you're going to secretly leave later on because you really didn't want to be around me.

I know that we agreed to just be friends. The things I gave you and did for you was because I like you. Up until now, I did them willingly because I knew I could trust you. I think we need to have a talk. I'll see you at the show. It'll be brief, I assure you. Just tell me what's on your mind. You'll find that it's very easy for me to let go. To change my interactions with you with no fault or harm to yourself, so long as you're open and honest with me.

This DOES hurt. Damn.

Man I'd feel like a total ass if someone gave me a letter like this. I hope the person you're giving it to has at least the integrity to be truthful with you.

It's not really so much a letter. I'm just letting out my thoughts. I figured it's good to do this, so that I can filter my thoughts out without needlessly burning bridges.

There's telling the truth and then there's trying to hurt feelings and I'm not out to start a fight, just to establish a level of understanding.

Dude, I hope things work out man. This one sounds like it has potential to be quite messy :(

Hmm, I also tend to vent like this - usually I write down a whole bunch of stuff in a word document, read it once or twice and then delete it. Seems to help.

It's ironic, that people will lie to you because they're afraid of hurting your feelings, but in doing so they hurt you even more. Why can't people just fucking be honest with each other?

I hope you two can work this one out. You seem to have worked out your feelings and can approach the situation with a clear head. Excuse me if I'm interpreting this incorrectly, but, "friends with benefits" has always been a bit of a shady concept for me.

Yeah, it doesn't really serve me too well. Oh well, it wasn't as if she wasn't up front with me in the beginning. I had no illusions and I still let things happen. Partly because I felt that I couldn't help it. It's my fault and I think on that aspect, I'm more mad at myself.

It was a learning experience. Painful but necessary. I recommend hot chocolate and The Muppet Christmas Carol. If you haven't seen it, than you need to; soon!