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I did this a month ago.
Striving to be perfect
Striving to be thin
I want the perfect body
Will this battle ever end?
Obsession of perfection
Anorexic? No I must stand tough
because starving myself just wouldn't be enough
I am getting tired of looking like this
No matter how hard I try
I always seem to fail
I must stop this now before I become a lie.
I have tried starvation though it still did not seem to please
I will never be perfect and the pain will never cease
I look into the mirror and hate myself even more
What does it mean? What is it for?
I am not happy with myself and sometimes I just want to die
From myself I tried to hide.
No one will ever like me I always tell myself
I always find myself praying to God for some help.
It seems he nevers listens or probably doesn't care
Maybe he just can't hear me because he probably isn't there.
I even tried throwing up but still I look the same
Ugly and fat with all this fucking pain
Everyone says I'm pretty but what do they see in me
Just an ugly monster wanting to be free.
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