[Saddiction]

Originally Posted by raggedyanne

At least sell your soul to Apple.

My rant today is against myself:
Why is it that just when everything starts going right, I fuck it up? How is it, with every one telling me how intelligent I am, that I can get D' in three classes?!
Why do I gain weight really easily while those stupid preps stuff their faces and still look like models? How can my skin stay so dark no matter how much sunscreen I use? Why can I have mostly guy friends, but no boyfriend? I hate being short and fat. I may be curvy, but with my short little legs I'm not going much of anywhere.
I'm sick of eating when I'm stressed and cutting when I'm angry. I'm tired of lashing out; in fact I'm tired of being tired! If I could lose thirty pounds my life would be so much better. I wish I could sing better, draw better, dance better, BE better! But I can't. For some reason I'm forever below average in everything but weight. ::sigh::
My dad's a bastard, my mom is a weak little prude, my sister always steals my belongings. The kids at school hate me. People ignore and belittle me. Today in P.E. I was the only girl not picked so I got stuck on a team that did its best to make me know I wasn't welcome. If there ever was a god, let him kill me now!

Instead of complaining about it, do something about it!