Hello, meet the new face of failure.
The last week sucked so much I am having trouble believeing that it was all real.
Please let me whine a little bit.....
So, i got a job at a fancy-prancy restaurant that belongs to the father of a friend. First of all I had to wear a white blouse, which made me completely insecure. it took me a half an hour to find someone to explain to me what I was to do. The rest of the time i spent either standing around and doing nothing since I had no clue about how everything functioned there, or else doing something that was completely new to me and that everyone expected me to understand. Have you ever seen a soup that has the actual soup part and the stuff that floats around in it served seperately?
Anyways, i screwed up regularly. had people yell at me and constantly being surprised about how little i knew. I have never been so incompetant in my life. That's what happens when you come form a poor family.
Anyways, guess what, I broke down like a sissy and started crying. i havn't cried for over 3 years and during this week that seems to be my new passtime.
Anyways, they politely told me not to come again.
I came home and had a lecture from my nice loving and carring and supportive mother about how I am good for nothing and how I should finally move out and stop being an egoistic parasite.
i would love to move out if I could just finally find a job in this country, which is a pain in the ass being a foreigner and not 18 yet.
The next evening I went out with a friend. We went from on club to another and it was boring everywhere. Then I dragged her into one of those filthy proletarian-ish metal clubs because there was nothing else. She then just left me there and later accused me of being a complete asshole on the phone.
The next day i broke with another 4 friends over the phone...all in one day. That's almost a record for me.
Now I am just sitting around and doing nothing and worrying about how I should be doing something. All ive managed in the meantime was to make mysekf a skirt (which is gorgeous by the way
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Anyways, if you read so far thank you, I know the above makes little sense, but i really don't know how to explain it. I broke with my boyfried and his friends which were the only people I actually liked and now all of this....
It just sucks so much.
I need to get a life........help???
