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Edward Strange · 09-20-2007, 11:04 AM

You are of course right Deliciti.
I've told much the same thing to various people on Emily Strange forum where I 'work' (ie. Moderatate) and it's very hypocritical of me not to apply those same lessons to myself.

I think that the problem with me arises with me still having pangs of desperately wanting to belong to something, anything! While at the same time being very self-conscious and wibbling about not being 'interesting enough' to belong to the very thing I claim to be a part of.

I do owe Goth a great deal, whether I am one or not, it's really helped me discover myself and feel alot more happier with who I am than I have been in a long while.
I think maybe it's that which makes me feel I should go the whole nine yards and I wonder whether I'm the right sort of person too actually do such a thing.
Without ending up in a situation similar too trying to push a square through a circular hole.
No matter how hard you try, or attempt to convince yourself it -will- fit in, it just won't and you should give up.

Again, you are right, I shouldn't worry, but I do, you know?
I feel some serious pondering is needed.

09-20-2007, 11:04 AM	#4
Edward Strange Join Date: Jun 2007 Location: Jolly old England. Posts: 300	You are of course right Deliciti. I've told much the same thing to various people on Emily Strange forum where I 'work' (ie. Moderatate) and it's very hypocritical of me not to apply those same lessons to myself. I think that the problem with me arises with me still having pangs of desperately wanting to belong to something, anything! While at the same time being very self-conscious and wibbling about not being 'interesting enough' to belong to the very thing I claim to be a part of. I do owe Goth a great deal, whether I am one or not, it's really helped me discover myself and feel alot more happier with who I am than I have been in a long while. I think maybe it's that which makes me feel I should go the whole nine yards and I wonder whether I'm the right sort of person too actually do such a thing. Without ending up in a situation similar too trying to push a square through a circular hole. No matter how hard you try, or attempt to convince yourself it -will- fit in, it just won't and you should give up. Again, you are right, I shouldn't worry, but I do, you know? I feel some serious pondering is needed. __________________ And then a chubby puppy with teensy legs rolls past which makes me giggle like a little school girl and forget what I was thinking about... Breathing heard just below the floorboards. The sense of something terrible rousing itself from from its torpor.