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Hey, I have always wanted to ask someone who is interested in dreams: have you ever been able to controle what you dream? I mean, if you, as you lay down to sleep, say to yourself something like: "I wanna see the day of my death" or "What questions are going to be on that fuckin' bio-test tomorrow?" or "I wanna know how many people died in a fire in the last 5 hours?", do you see the "answer" to your question?
Anyway, I haven't slept for 4 days now because I am afraid of what I will see in my dreams.
All this shit, I mean the "answering of questions" thing, started a year or so ago. At first i liked it, becuase what i saw in my dreams was always true (as long as I could check it, anyway).
That was a while ago. I asked some bullshit question or other every night and got the answer, but a few months ago it stoped working. What started happening instead is the most ridiculous stuff. You can't call what i dream nightmares, because I am not scared while I dream it. Well, one would say, "then what's the problem? You dream some freaky stuff at night and enjoy it. That sounds fun." Well, its not fun seeing parallels and hints and having this deja-vu (sp?) feeling all the time in the real world, conecting my associations with the stuff from my dreams. Not all the horror movies put together can add up to my every night experience.
And what else is anoying, is that i seem to spend energy instead of gain it at night, so I wake up feeling as if I had run 66666666666666666666666666 km and not lain peacefully in my bed (it's shaped like a coffin, by the way) the whole night.
In otherwords, I look like a walking corpse (not trying to brag! i don't mean it in the good way) now and my friends hardly recognise me. Just having a jolly good life over here.
I am interested in what other people dream. This is a really cool topic.
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