spare us, athala. you've chosen to call yourself a christian for what - 3 months - and your rhetoric comes across as though you believe yourself to be some sort of secluded monk, studying the ways of whatever you suddenly think the lord might be.
for all any of us know, you could be some sort of sexual freak, drugging and molesting whatever prey you come across. you could mutilate small animals, or large ones for that matter. you might be the kind of person who sets fire to homes while the inhabitants are asleep. you might be the sort of person who sits and masturbates to images at rotten.com, for christ's sake...
wait a second. i do that. never mind that last part.
the bottom line - fuck off with your holier-than-thou bullsit. this is getting fiercely tiresome. whatever light you think you're qualified to help others see, it's personal - and no one here needs to "enlightened" by your personal revelations. goddamned feeble-minded starving-to-fit-in-somewhere addict.
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