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Originally Posted by Lapin
I have to make an appointment with the shrink. I was doing so well. I had gone three years without the medication. But the constant stress of school and taking care of a four year old and a three year old has just become too much.
I can't make myself study, and I was a Dean's List student. I can't seem to get any joy out of music. I can't make myself practice sewing, because it's not fun anymore. I sleep too much. I'm not hungry. I'm stressed and irritated and just so fucking unhappy I keep crying like a fucking child over the stupidest things.
I just can't stand it anymore, so I'm making an appt. to go see the doctor and be put back on the medication so that I don't start actually hurting people.
I'm so scared to do it. What if I never get off of it? What if I really am like this for good and can't manage without the medication? I feel so fucking helpless and weak and tired and I just want to sleep forever. I hate this so much.
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It's clear that you *can* manage without, you said yourself that you did it for three years but now the stress has got to you so you can't
for the time being. If the meds help then take them. If you don't want to feel totally zombiefied then can you ask for a
slightly lower dosage ? Or perhaps take a pill only when you feel you really must? When the day is really getting to you?