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Originally Posted by NightmareInShiningArmour
See, the amount of times I've told him that I'm not a Satanist, I don't even believe in Satan, I've shared some of my music with him, we have similar taste. He got me in Black Sabbath and I've recommended some of my bands to him, he likes them too. And I don't wear makeup, have any piercings (aside from one in my left ear that I got when I was 7) and still he has his irrational thoughts. I show him as much intelligence and maturity I can, I always keep calm when he talks about it, except for last night. I started to cry. I knew he hated it but it doesn't mean he shouldn't wanna even look like my dad! I want that What is Goth? book, I'd love for you to send it, except, I think it'd be a little weird, some random person I met on the internet sending me a book called What is Goth? haha. He probably WOULD get pissed off.
And it's just a suspicion but I reckon the reason he's worried because last year he found out I had slit my wrists. I'd been going through a hard time. It probably wasn't the way to handle it, but I was a complete freak.. Ugh I hated myself. I haven't done it for a while now. I have an obsession with blood, sharp objects (such as razors, I even have a strait razor necklace), Satanic Black Metal bands, murderous music and I am obsessed with horror movies filled with gore (the Saw's, Black Dahlia Murder, The truth about Demons..) He hates it. I like it. Pity he doesn't just accept our differences. I don't want to, but chances are I'll grow out of it. He was part of the Reaperz Bikie Gang, he admits it was stupid, can't he let me just at least DRESS and listen to what I want??
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