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Originally Posted by NightmareInShiningArmour
And it's just a suspicion but I reckon the reason he's worried because last year he found out I had slit my wrists.
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O RLY?!
... Yeah, he sounds real unreasonable.
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Originally Posted by NightmareInShiningArmour
I'd been going through a hard time. It probably wasn't the way to handle it, but I was a complete freak.. Ugh I hated myself. I haven't done it for a while now. I have an obsession with blood, sharp objects (such as razors, I even have a strait razor necklace), Satanic Black Metal bands, murderous music and I am obsessed with horror movies filled with gore (the Saw's, Black Dahlia Murder, The truth about Demons..) He hates it. I like it. Pity he doesn't just accept our differences. I don't want to, but chances are I'll grow out of it. He was part of the Reaperz Bikie Gang, he admits it was stupid, can't he let me just at least DRESS and listen to what I want??
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Did you ever think that maybe the reason he hates your gory films and black metal is because it's a visible reminder of your self-proclaimed obsession with sharp objects, blood and cutting yourself? If he wasn't already on the alert for signs of deviance, you could probably dress however you like and watch whatever you want. But now you've worried him, he's going to judge you by different standards to kids who DON'T self-harm. You can't blame him for wondering if the extra morbidity is good for you.
I'm sorry but I get so annoyed by people who indulge in little self-destructive behaviours, then get pissy if anyone becomes concerned about them. Sometimes you just have to swallow your self-righteousness, accept that you messed up, and do what you have to do for a while.