I'm suspended from school for 3 days (today, monday, and tuesday. monday is halloween. I hate that place. I dont get to dressup and go to that shithole for halloween and I wasnt allowed to go to the halloween dance tonight. so Im getting trashed tonight..) The computer nazi cut me off the internet for going to an art site with a profane name (
www.gardenofwhores.com) didnt mean to, just looking for graphics. Ive been off the net since sept. I have a report to do in Biology, and I call the computer nazi a stupid bitch. I thought he liked me and I dont know how many times I yelled FUCK in the middle of his idiotic class (creationist biology teacher. doesnt believe in gravity, or that it is essential to the survival of the human race. doesnt believe in global warming or evolution. you get the point I hope) But I tolerated him. He sent me to the office. I havent had my medicine for over a week and I had a panic attack in the hall and started crying. My aunt (the ass. principal) dragged me form the guidance office to her office to the guidance office. I tried to leave, I couldnt breath and I was freaking out. She practically dragged me back into the school and down to the nurse's office. Its the only time I lost it in school. I was screaming in the nurse's office and pulling at my hair to keep myself from crying, because I felt so weak. I was dragged back up to the guidance office and then spent the rest of the 20min of the day in the ass. principal's office. They made me tell them the names of the boys that constantly pick on me. I dont care about them. Its the school administration that gave them the incentive to once again relentlessly pick on me. With them banning the Goth dress in school because its "distracting" gave them a reason to start picking on me again. My mom wants me to graduate, but I dont know how much more I can take...