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Good Morning everyone....
I'm having a very hard time right now. On Saturday I left a very emotionally abusive man that I've been living with for almost a year. I love him, but I am an independent women and I never thought I would be the one in a damaging and unhealthy relationship. I've been struggling with the guilt of leaving him, and his two beautiful children, but I'm tired of sacrificing my self worth so he can show those two boys that it's OK to treat women like that!
In one hand, I feel strong and proud of myself for finally getting up the courage to leave a dangerous situation, but the other side of the scale is worthlessness and self-loathing for not fixing the problem that can't be fixed.
What's worse is that I have spent a good deal of time helping other women who are in abusive (be it physical or emotional or both) relationships, coping and giving them the help they needed to get out, but I found myself in one and I have no idea how I got here.
I'm sorry for ranting my stupid, cliche issues here, but I needed to get it out and that's it.
I hope the damage can be repaired because I don't feel like the vivacious, fun and loving person I used to be. Ugh.
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