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Stitchy. · 04-23-2010, 08:46 PM

So yeah recently I've moved (I've moved 11 times in my life by the way and I'm only 16) and not to sound emo because I rather dislike the subculture but I need an outlet so here goes. I think its done a lot of damage to my personality and may have caused some mental disorders I moved to florida (God why?) And I've found among the many things I hate about this place that there is nobody I can relate to I had many friends and yes a girl friend in my last state but now I have nothing its been almost a year and still nearly nothing don't get me wrong I accept the fact that my Clothing (Being a goth and all obviously) Will keep people distant, scared or freaked out but usually I find some people to relate to but now I have no one. I am beginning to get MORE anti social lately and have been getting almost completely withdrawn from life in general simply finding solace in music and drawing. Problem is whnever I find somone who will talk to me (Now here come the mental problems) I get extremely nervous and anxiety filled yes the big scary guy in combat boots with black hair is scared to talk to people I shake a lot and stutter quite a bit and this causes some confusion and then I either slip into major depression (Lasts for hours to days depending on what happens) Or I go into an extremely hyper active/apathetic mood where I run around freaking people out because its just fucking fun. Now some of my grades in my sophomore year are slipping very far behind what they should be (5 F's for lazy ness and a 6th because I've flipped off the teacher countless times) And I'm beginning to think theres very little I can do to dig myself out of this messy hole I'm stuck in and its breaking me down even further so?......help?..please?

04-23-2010, 08:46 PM	#1
Stitchy. Join Date: Apr 2010 Location: Florida land of thy old people. Posts: 43	Pain pain blah more whining! So yeah recently I've moved (I've moved 11 times in my life by the way and I'm only 16) and not to sound emo because I rather dislike the subculture but I need an outlet so here goes. I think its done a lot of damage to my personality and may have caused some mental disorders I moved to florida (God why?) And I've found among the many things I hate about this place that there is nobody I can relate to I had many friends and yes a girl friend in my last state but now I have nothing its been almost a year and still nearly nothing don't get me wrong I accept the fact that my Clothing (Being a goth and all obviously) Will keep people distant, scared or freaked out but usually I find some people to relate to but now I have no one. I am beginning to get MORE anti social lately and have been getting almost completely withdrawn from life in general simply finding solace in music and drawing. Problem is whnever I find somone who will talk to me (Now here come the mental problems) I get extremely nervous and anxiety filled yes the big scary guy in combat boots with black hair is scared to talk to people I shake a lot and stutter quite a bit and this causes some confusion and then I either slip into major depression (Lasts for hours to days depending on what happens) Or I go into an extremely hyper active/apathetic mood where I run around freaking people out because its just fucking fun. Now some of my grades in my sophomore year are slipping very far behind what they should be (5 F's for lazy ness and a 6th because I've flipped off the teacher countless times) And I'm beginning to think theres very little I can do to dig myself out of this messy hole I'm stuck in and its breaking me down even further so?......help?..please?