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Originally Posted by Grausamkeit
Kitty, geez, sorry I joked about the hubz needing a second job. I agree with Fru, though. You've gotta take care of yourself.
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Ah I came across as an ass in my post. Hell, you know what
CK, I'm still here, standing by my man, a decade+ later.
To give you some insight into our financial situation, we have a mortgage that if we had to live on my miniscule wage, we'd have to sell yesterday and lose a bundle of money.
Rents here are ridiculous, so we'd probably end up in a one bedroom flat in some shitty hell hole (because we don't have family to take us in), and that's assuming that I could find childcare for babybat in a hurry, because mr Bat couldn't look after him.
But you know what? Wherever Mr Bat is, is my home. I don't care if I have to live in a cave and wash in the river and work 100 hours a week. I'll do it.
But I'm a stupid romantic twat, who believes in the institute of marriage and I hang on in there when others would have gone running because a good guy is a good guy and worth hanging onto.
I'd like to think that hanging in here has made me into a better person, but there are times when it has felt like I've had enough and have considered walking many many times because it all got too hard and too much for me to deal with.
Plus I think it's pretty shitty to leave someone who has had their world turned upsidedown because of an illness they have had no control over.
I'd never let my personal opinion get in the way of what I think of someone else, because I've been there, done the hard yards, and I know how friggin' hard it is to watch the guy you love go through hell and then have your life turn upside down because he can't do the things he used to do and the worst thing is it's no one fault. You can't blame him because he didn't sign up for the disease and the only thing you can blame is the disease and that's part of who he is - so the whole blame game is fucked.
But you have to look after yourself first because at the end of the day you can't look after someone else if you are running on empty.
*climbs down off soapbox*