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This is unable to be fixed.
My mother's fiancee recently moved in with us. I love him, he's a great guy, and he's done more for us than my biological father (who is an alcoholic and a dopehead) ever has. The problem with this is that ever since he moved in, my mother has been less happy and more miserable and has been drinking and smoking pot a lot more often. To the point where she does it during the week before StepFather drives us out to play practice. (And she's in the cast.)
She also has gotten into this thing where she won't let me be quiet. If I'm quiet for too long, she gets mad and tells me to tell her what's wrong with me. When I say "nothing" she rolls her eyes and basically tells me to suffer then, and when I tell her my problem (generally to do with her lack of presence, constant misery, subsequent anger, and how I already lost one parent to this kind of thing) she accuses me of trying to guilt trip and manipulate her. I'm used to her drinking in moderation for fun, now it's just kind of ridiculous. She KNOWS I'm frightened because she has a history with
"substances". (cough cough CRACK cough, which she quit a few years ago. She never told me she was on it, I figured it out for myself.) Oh, and she also told me she quit taking her Zoloft because "pot was more fun and cheaper".
She also tells me that if I keep it up she and StepFather will just start going out to the bars and getting smashed and then come home and sit at the table and smoke bowl after bowl.
My nine year old sister knows whats going on and it hurts her too. It hurts me to see it hurt her. I want to fix this but I just can't.
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