Rant Thread II - Page 353

HumanePain · 07-23-2016, 02:53 PM

(Arrives in Mercedes C300, quickly jaunts from the air conditioned car through the harsh sun and into the thankfully darkened hallways of Gothic.net, drawing closed the thick velvet burgundy drapes across windows, and then straightening up, turns and slowly enters the Great Room, with Vicodins and a large pitcher of Martinis on a silver platter, and goes around offering pain relief).

Suffering. Enduring. 'Tis this mortal life. Sorry to hear about everyone's troubles.

My rant: GAWD I FUCKING HATE JULY AND AUGUST! A goth's nemesis!
109? Seriously? Who is all for building a Queen Anne Victorian Gnet mansion in Australia for our summer getaway to more reasonable temperatures? Eh? Who's with me! Or New Zealand?

Oh, and only the Martinis OR the pain pills. Sorry but I won't permit both in one person at the same time.

BourbonBoy · 09-13-2016, 09:28 AM

Has SoCal cooled any HP? South Texas dropped in temperature but with the humidity it feels the same. ~90+95% humidity my ass.

Job report update: Stop no luck and contemplating sucking dick for cash soon. :/

ape descendant · 09-21-2016, 11:00 AM

*hugs all around* I hope every one's doing better. Hope the Job situation gets looking better soon BB I'll cross my fingers for ya. <3 I'd rant but it'd just be silly petty little stuff, so there's that.

BourbonBoy · 09-27-2016, 02:02 PM

Nothing wrong with the occasional rant to get things off your chest Ape

*hugs back* So I have a few job interviews lined up and hoping I get one. Not what I wanted but it will have to do for now.

Saya · 10-18-2016, 06:46 PM

I think I may have election anxiety. And it's cycling into election depression.

ape descendant · 11-09-2016, 02:43 AM

I feel really let down right now. :'(

Saya · 11-09-2016, 11:08 PM

Deep breaths. This is really really going to suck, no lie, but we can agitate and hopefully mitigate the damage.

On the bright side, I totally forgot about the poem in my sig and it actually cheers me up a little. Well done, past me.

TrivialMorose · 04-28-2020, 01:28 PM

I just did some dishes while listening to Raven Said. I enjoyed the music, danced a bit to it, but now I'm feeling down. Prospects are bleak. There will never again be anything to look forward to. At least that's how it feels like. I'm pretty sure that's right. The plague killed my last hopes.

I'm about to go to sleep, but I wanted to write something here first, I had lots of thoughts running through my head while I was in connection with the water, but now it has all gone down the drain. Now there is nothing.

I haven't been doing anything productive lately, and it's eating me. Not that me doing anything "productive" has ever been anything more than a joke, anyway. I am garbage and everything I have ever done is garbage. I hate myself.

I wish I could do something...

Something...

Different...

Better...

Something real...

I wish I could do marketing. That's the only skill that is worth anything.

But I am not worth anything.

I wish I was special.

But I'm a creep.

I'm a weirdo.

Good night Gothic Net.

TrivialMorose · 04-29-2020, 03:16 AM

I wish I had anything to say, but I don't. Yet, I spam. And whine and spam.

TrivialMorose · 04-29-2020, 09:26 PM

I have a constant, tight feeling in my chest. Just waiting for the hammer to fall. No, it's not a heart attack, just the news that I know are coming. I'm already crushed and it's still going to be crushing. I can't take it, I can't take this.

TrivialMorose · 04-30-2020, 06:03 AM

More whining and wallowing. I spent most of the day today trying to get back on that daunting horse and write. I didn't get anything good or anything substantial done. As usual, I feel like a complete failure.

I think, though I cannot be sure, that the main problem is that I can see no prospects. Even if I were to finish writing anything, I'd have nothing to do with it. It would all be for nothing, and that's really scary. I guess I really just wish somebody would for once in my life tell me, "good job", and that's just about the most pathetic thing I know... Oh, how I hate myself right now. I loathe, I vomit, I want to tear my skin off...

Right now, I'm actually kind of in the middle of doing dishes while listening to Evestus. I can't even dance today for the pressure I feel inside my head because of this... this thing that just hangs over me...

Everything sucks...

TrivialMorose · 04-30-2020, 06:22 AM

It's not even just concerning writing that I see no prospects. This feeling pervades everything. I have nothing to look forward to.

Just felt I needed to add that.

Today is a booze day (wtf?). I wish I enjoyed that. I don't.

Bah.

TrivialMorose · 04-30-2020, 01:15 PM

I did manage to write something today, after all. Not much, not good, perhaps not even useful, but at least it was better than a flat zero. At least now Choronzon can't climb up me tonight.

But all the problems persist.

And I also tried to paint today, and, ugh, it went just horribly. I can't draw worth a spit. And it sucks, because I have a project in mind, a vision, for something I'd like to do, but I'm just not good enough. Never good enough.

Whine.

Garrrrr-bage...

TrivialMorose · 04-30-2020, 01:18 PM

I just looked up and saw me talking to myself, and the sight was very sad.

shadowynne · 05-06-2020, 01:13 AM

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Originally Posted by TrivialMorose

I just looked up and saw me talking to myself, and the sight was very sad.

For some reason I find this strangely beautiful.

TrivialMorose · 05-06-2020, 01:02 PM

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Originally Posted by shadowynne

For some reason I find this strangely beautiful.

No thing that has some beauty in it has been a complete waste... Something that I've liked to think, but it sounds fallacious and stupid now that I've written it down. Oh, well.

UnderwaterOphelia · 05-07-2020, 03:19 PM

Fuck it, I'll rant.
I hate that I have cancer. It's dumb as fuck and I don't wish it on anyone, ever. My throat is burning like chemical burn feeling and it makes even drinking water nearly impossible. Which works alongside the biblical diarrhea to drain you of all moisture, giving you cracking skin, headaches, and dizziness, among other bullshit.

TrivialMorose · 05-07-2020, 10:03 PM

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Originally Posted by UnderwaterOphelia

Fuck it, I'll rant.
I hate that I have cancer. It's dumb as fuck and I don't wish it on anyone, ever. My throat is burning like chemical burn feeling and it makes even drinking water nearly impossible. Which works alongside the biblical diarrhea to drain you of all moisture, giving you cracking skin, headaches, and dizziness, among other bullshit.

I hate that you have cancer, too. Fucking sucks.

I just wrote a long health rant also, but before I was even finished, I decided it was too... negative... a subject for me and I took it off. I still saved what I wrote in case I later change my mind. Now I'll try to get something done with my creative writing projects, or something.

TrivialMorose · 05-19-2020, 10:27 PM

Can I say fuck? Can I say shit? Can I even say gothic ******?

Hahahahahaha, Seems I can curse but that last one is still too vile! That is so funny...

shadowynne · 05-20-2020, 12:17 PM

Good gods man, whatever did you say?

TrivialMorose · 05-23-2020, 12:06 AM

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Originally Posted by shadowynne

Good gods man, whatever did you say?

Only the most horrible and depraved thing any man can say!

Good thing I'm already crazy, else I would have risked losing my marbles!

TrivialMorose · 05-27-2020, 12:59 PM

I am currently very stressed out because I’m writing a short story on a tight deadline of one week.

The really sad part is, that realistically, a chimpanzee randomly mashing on a keyboard could write this story from start to finish in just two days. Alas, I am not quite on the level of chimpanzees and chance.

I am now one day behind on my self-imposed, very abstract schedule. And that is pissing me off.

Couple days left.

Time's a-ticking aweigh.

I'm so, so, SO gonna fail this. Then "you" can "all" laugh at me.

TrivialMorose · 05-29-2020, 04:51 PM

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I'm so, so, SO gonna fail this. Then "you" can "all" laugh at me.

Update on this, I actually finished the story. So you'll have to postpone your laughs until I get the rejection letter for it.
It came out slightly shorter than I had intended, so, it would have taken the chimp just one day of mashing, where it took me a whole week of hard thought writing. So I succeeded, and yet I feel like a failure for it.

Also, I'll have to send it to the publisher today, so that means I don't get the chance to edit it as much as I would like to.

Eah, this is so terrible... wish me luck "guys". Really, please, please, pretty please, wish me luck, I fucking need it.

TrivialMorose · 06-21-2020, 07:03 AM

My story got rejected because nobody wished me luck... Is sad

TrivialMorose · 06-21-2020, 07:07 AM

I feel like this is the abyss.