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Posted 04-04-2011 at 02:27 PM by Ami
I know a lot of people, I'm friendly towards most of them and yet, right now I am alone. Just about everything in my life is busy falling apart and I don't have a single person to talk to about it. I don't know what to do.
Do I choose option A, making me miserable but leaving nobody else disappointed or do I choose option B, which is still being worked on (but I know anything will be better that this)? On the one side I put my sanity on the line but on the other side I put my future security on the line.
Don't get me wrong: I am very open to the possibility that I might die tomorrow but I am also aware of Murphy's law...
I just don't know whether it would be for the best if I choose to be selfish right now. All I know is that there is a part of me that can't handle this for much longer but I don't know what will happen when she breaks down.
For the first time in a long time I can't have someone else make this decision for me and it scares the hell out of me.
With tears on my pillow (hopefully)
-A
Do I choose option A, making me miserable but leaving nobody else disappointed or do I choose option B, which is still being worked on (but I know anything will be better that this)? On the one side I put my sanity on the line but on the other side I put my future security on the line.
Don't get me wrong: I am very open to the possibility that I might die tomorrow but I am also aware of Murphy's law...
I just don't know whether it would be for the best if I choose to be selfish right now. All I know is that there is a part of me that can't handle this for much longer but I don't know what will happen when she breaks down.
For the first time in a long time I can't have someone else make this decision for me and it scares the hell out of me.
With tears on my pillow (hopefully)
-A
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Posted 04-04-2011 at 02:54 PM by Tassilo -
And what exactly is option C? Waiting to see what happens next while I do absolutely nothing?
Posted 04-04-2011 at 10:13 PM by Ami -
Posted 04-05-2011 at 11:52 AM by Tassilo -
thanks for your input. I'll try that
Posted 04-05-2011 at 02:43 PM by Ami
Updated 04-05-2011 at 04:15 PM by Ami -
Its that type of thing that you have to get lost to find that is when it will come to you and unvail it's self to you. For me it took a while to notice then when it came down to it was pretty much the only anwser that had seemed clear. It doesn't mean that you would have to fall off the deep end it just means that you would have to face your fears.
Posted 04-06-2011 at 10:47 AM by Tassilo