so imagine how weird i feel .. when am telling you such things .. and still feeling so bad , and no one understand , so just leave me alone , and do not tell me that you are understanding , maybe you understand some things .. but you do not feel it

there's no bigger joy for me when i know and feel you're happy..but if i feel you're not i try to help..maybe i helped in wrong way, maybe you felt i didn't help at all..but i know i tried..i'll always..i can't stand if you feel bad you know that..and i want you to be happy always..i know this is impossible..i know there are times when you'll feel happy or sad or mad.. and nothing can change what i feel for you no matter if you feel good or bad..you have to know this so you won't ask ever again if i am bored..you can't ask me this..