Rant Thread - Page 160

Splintered · 06-27-2007, 10:32 PM

I'm shaking right now I'm angry.

So, I was part of a group, that shall remain nameless. Needless to say, they were an organization that pretended to be the military for kids.

For two years, I was apart of this group, and I thought it was hell. What went on there reminds me of only one other part of my life: Living with an abusive step-father and step-brother (Thankfully, I was divorced from them).

I want to scream right now I hate those fuckers so much. I want to smash them into the ground and kick them in the fucking head. I don't know why, but I feel like they stripped every chance I had at being normal for those two years. I just want to smash something right now.

I am so glad I left, yet I can't shake this anger. It's been with me for these past years, and I don't know how I can let it go.

dreamydancer · 06-27-2007, 11:38 PM

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Originally Posted by raggedyanne

I have lost my inspiration. Usually I am forced to carry my notebooks around with me, lest I forget my ideas and lose a poem. Lately, there's been nothing, notta, nil. It could be because I'm in a relationship with a guy I don't really like, or it could just be the season. Whatever the issue, it is driving my insane!

That sucks. I lost most of my creative juices when I grew out of my rebellious phase in middle school. I was an angry little, venomous creature back them. I wrote morbid poetry and loved doing art. These days I am content to observe and admire those who are worthy artists, poets, and writers.

Since then my writing has been bland and I was a real disappointment in the art classes I took. Oh dear, I'm not helping.

Anyway, I say dump the guy. Tell him he has a pencil dick or something.

Aaroneet · 06-28-2007, 05:56 AM

Funny, when I find happiness (and I'm talking shallow happiness), I lose my inspiration. Otherwise, I can pretty much write about anything.

raggedyanne · 06-28-2007, 01:17 PM

I write my best poetry after a fight or during autumn and winter. Something about summer depresses me. It could be lack of interesting things to do. It could also be that I'm so busy avoiding the sun I can't go out to my writing spot. I want to dump the guy, but when it seems dumping a guy is the only time my conscience shows up (she likes to vacation and only come back when she can hinder my progress).

Aaroneet · 06-28-2007, 01:56 PM

Do what's best for you. If it means dumping the guy, it's a necessary step towards self-improvement. We all need to do things we don't like to do; this may very well be one of them.

prophecyofdoom · 06-28-2007, 04:06 PM

Ambivalent relationships have always dried up my creativity. Furthermore they end up dulling the joy in other aspects of your life. If there is no marriage, children, or financial dependance, why would you allow a relationship like this to keep lumbering on? "You're only young once, and you're never old twice." I've had such relationships, and when they inevitably end, I wondered why I wasted so much of my, and the other person's time. If you know a solid relationship between the two of you is just not in the cards, isn't it just wasting time? If there are no moments of passion and beauty, what's the point?

Aaroneet · 06-28-2007, 04:12 PM

That's probably the best advice anyone could give. Good luck with whatever you decide to do, raggedyanne.

dreamydancer · 06-29-2007, 02:54 PM

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Originally Posted by Aaroneet

I hate that. Seriously...I am very academically competitive during the school year, and it irritates me to no end when I see others who act like they're working, but really aren't. Maybe it's just because my elementary school pushed my class, but I tend to have a low threshold for mediocrity. Especially when it's the result of a lack of hard work.

What pisses me off is assholes who don't sever their wrists to do well in school. They slack off in class, socialize, don't study at home, and basically don't take themselves too seriously. Then they get a better grade than me. Arrrg, it stoops me too my lowest level of dorkdom.

raggedyanne · 06-30-2007, 01:10 AM

Thanks for the advice. I think I'll break up with him after I get back from prescott next week, then take a good book and lounge in the cemetery with my friends. I just picked up "The gothic collection" off i-tunes; as a baby bat I find it quite enjoyable. Reminds me of the mix cd my dog ate last week.

Mir · 06-30-2007, 03:50 AM

Argh!!!!!!

Aaroneet · 06-30-2007, 06:24 AM

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Originally Posted by dreamydancer

What pisses me off is assholes who don't sever their wrists to do well in school. They slack off in class, socialize, don't study at home, and basically don't take themselves too seriously. Then they get a better grade than me. Arrrg, it stoops me too my lowest level of dorkdom.

Haha! Fellow dorks unite! But in my case, that's my entire class...And I do get better grades than the majority of the class, but the class reputation is still brought down because a whole bunch of people decideded to be lazy.

Aaroneet · 06-30-2007, 06:26 AM

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Originally Posted by raggedyanne

Thanks for the advice. I think I'll break up with him after I get back from prescott next week, then take a good book and lounge in the cemetery with my friends. I just picked up "The gothic collection" off i-tunes; as a baby bat I find it quite enjoyable. Reminds me of the mix cd my dog ate last week.

I bought some of the songs off of that, but not the entire collection. *whispers under her breath* Birthday present...

Mir · 07-01-2007, 07:27 PM

My girlfriend has been cheating on me. Yay for me.

Paigeybobert · 07-01-2007, 10:07 PM

Why?!?!?!?!?!????
I need sex!

Mir · 07-02-2007, 01:17 AM

She's a bad person. What can I say? I feel so bad inside. I knew something was going on from day one because she wanted our relationship to be a secret and I played along with that. Then i was checking out the camera in her phone and a new message popped up. Opened it by mistake and it was well.. revealing. Got suspicious and checked other messages and voila. She has been seeing him for quite some time now.

HumanePain · 07-02-2007, 01:47 AM

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Originally Posted by Mir

She's a bad person. What can I say? I feel so bad inside. I knew something was going on from day one because she wanted our relationship to be a secret and I played along with that. Then i was checking out the camera in her phone and a new message popped up. Opened it by mistake and it was well.. revealing. Got suspicious and checked other messages and voila. She has been seeing him for quite some time now.

Aw man. That sucks.

Crying_Crimson_Tears · 07-02-2007, 01:25 PM

Aw Mir, I'm sorry. That totally sucks.

Here's a hug. *Hugs*

I'll bake ya cookies too.

honeythorn · 07-02-2007, 01:34 PM

My nephew who I haven't seen for a few years was at my house when I got home. I am horrified and ashamed to say the he has become the worst kind of chav. I knew something was up when I felt my IQ hit rock bottom as I went through the door. He had 2 of his friends as well, both outfitted in the usual horrendous garb. WHY he was there all of a sudden I have no idea, he's never bothered before. He is loud, uncouth, he is ignorant and a smartarse. I am very dissapointed .

Aaroneet · 07-02-2007, 05:29 PM

I'm sorry, but do you mind if I just curse someone out here? *It's personal, so I'm not directing it at anyone here.*

You fu*king bastard! You played with my heart! You mean you had no clue what was going on? Come on; the special attention. You have to be fu*king kidding me! This is messed up! You played with me! Why did I play the fool?! I could have shut myself out, but no! I fu*king let you in! Like a fool! You bastard! I'll contort you in ways you never knew possible! You think you know pain? You don't know anything about it, buddy! Pain is waiting for someone who doesn't recognize you in a crowd of wannabes. Pain is waiting. I was told to stay away from you. Now all I have is a signature to remember you by. You lecherous twit. May you die a lonely and miserable death.

Mir · 07-03-2007, 06:11 PM

Wow, that is just what I wanted to scream out loud too, Aaroneet.

Aaroneet · 07-03-2007, 06:17 PM

Cool! I'm not alone after all...*UFO noise indicated in background*

Mir · 07-03-2007, 06:40 PM

As long as I'm e-here you'll never be alone. And thanks HP and CCT for your words of support. I appreciate it. =)

HumanePain · 07-03-2007, 07:56 PM

Anytime Mir. You can always Messenger or AIM me if you want to talk about it.
Just not this second though, going to bed. I have been up since 2:30 AM.

Mir · 07-04-2007, 03:54 PM

hehe, thanks HP. Goodnight and sweet dark dreams of fairies in leather tights and matching bras.

Nevan · 07-06-2007, 01:03 AM

Sorry wasn't really following this thread but gotta whine somewhere...

Why do I always feel so fucking incompetent? Nothing is ever good enough. I'm not smart enough, not beautiful enough, not quick enough. Not friggin' anything enough. Always something lacking. Always saying something stupid, doing something wrong - wish I could just delete my own mind and climb into someone else's body and have a different life altogether. Fuck. I'm a damn shadow as it is and no amount of crying or bitching will change that. Wish I could be on the piste right now. Putting on that black mask is the only way for me to become the person that I'm afraid to be in real life. What is real anyway? I'd rather live trapped in a constant fantasy than face the friggin' crap I have to put up with every day.