Bad things - Page 2

cradle · 07-20-2006, 01:56 PM

ah.I know how that can feel.
I have to stay in an empety house with a crackhead and one tv.
FOR A WEEK!!!

Don't Look Behind You · 07-21-2006, 04:27 PM

Well at least you are going somewhere. Change is the most important.

I am stuck here in Vienna....and that for the whole summer.

The rest of the class will all come back fresh with new experiences, probably changed in personality....i have no chance for any change what so ever sitting here and spending every evening either in some fucked up club or sitting in front of a fountain.

Alaizabel Cray · 07-21-2006, 08:58 PM

My running shoes gave me a blister. It's weird, I've had them for almost a year and they've never done that before. it's annoying though. Ran 3 miles today with those things, and now my foot hurts. It keeps getting worse each time I go out. I need a new pair anyways (after a year the padding becomes less cushiony and it helps to give you shin-splints and other nasty stuffs), but ew, I hate blisters so much.

Catch · 07-22-2006, 12:16 PM

I've been wanting to see Clerks II but running into problems. One problem is that the guy I was going to go see it with has a girlfriend and said she shouldn't go with us. Now mind you it isn't a date. We don't think of each other that way, however, when someone says that, you know she is going to be all pissed off. I don't know if we're going anymore.

Don't Look Behind You · 07-22-2006, 03:57 PM

Today I decided to fight my isolation and went to try out a new club. It's called Rock Pub....oooo, how original.

it turned out to be a small, cramped basement chamber where everyone had to run around half naked because of the heat.

So I shook my head abit to the music, jumped around like an idiot with the rest and then sat down, drank about five tiquilas and some a whole pack of cigaretts and started feeling sorry for myself.

I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. I couldn't stop thinking about Russia, my friends there, this guy I once saw on the street, the scandals I've had with pritty much anyone I've ever met.......and on and on and on.

I seem to be searching for somewhere where i would "fit in", whatever the fuck that might mean. This club was quite okay, but I just couldn't feel well there. And there is nowhere I feel well. And what the hell do I actually need to feel well? That is the big question.

I hate this depressive state. As soon as I am left alone for a minute I start getting all dissapointed in the whole fuckin world and just feeling sorry for myself like an idiot. I hate this...I really wish I could change.

Alaizabel Cray · 07-22-2006, 05:18 PM

Don't Look Behind You, I know how you feel. I used to feel the same way all the time. I have a chemical imbalance in my brain but before anyone figured that out, I was extremely depressed and overly anxious about everything to the point that at least once a week just the thought of how much homework I had gave me a panic attack. I kept thinking I didn't fit in, and I just wanted some place where I could do that. I can't offer you many tips on how to fix it seeing as meds have mostly done the trick for me, but it helps to assure yourself that there's nothing wrong with you (in the sense that there's nothing about you that is keeping you from "fitting in" except yorself) and just go out there and talk to people and eventually, you'll find someone who is on the same wave-length as you and voilá, instant friendship. Not to tell you what to do, or anything, though, just making a suggestion. Sometimes I can come off as bossy when I'm just trying to help.

Don't Look Behind You · 07-22-2006, 05:28 PM

Cool, once again I have been understood.

I won't keep to this subject for long, but it's just strange.

The whole mood swings. One minute I am jumping around to some Napalm Death song and waving my head around and having fun and the one second where there is no abvious contact to poeple I start feeling stupid and not fitting in....and then I just can't get back into the careless having fun attitude.

And the problem is, the places where I hang around there is no possibility to talk. Either one jumps around or makes out of whatever...only phisical communication.

Maybe that's the problem. I just want to fuckin talk and the youth culture here doesn't seem to welcome this phenomenon.

Alaizabel Cray · 07-22-2006, 08:25 PM

Oh I know. It's that way with teens and young adults (is that even the right term? kids in their early/middle twenties in any case) here. Pretty much everywhere probabably. You get your kids who are totally willling to just sit down and have an intelligent conversation with you, but you get way more who seem to lose all interest the moment you say anything. I don't get why that happens. Hm.

Marko · 07-23-2006, 01:25 AM

when i got sunburned it hurt without moving i layed on my stomach, but still the flesh was just sizzling away. It was like someone got cooking oil and made my lay in the sun all day....

cradle · 07-25-2006, 11:52 AM

Aloe verra?

Don't Look Behind You · 07-27-2006, 05:52 PM

This is a really bad thing....

In a club some guy started talking to me. He was really nice and all that but I could hear what the fuck he was saying and so not to seem like an idiot asking "what?" and "heh?" the whole time I ran off as soon as he turned away.

Now I am feeling kind of guilty. Fuck the loud music. Why do the people that go to places like that even start talking? It's not made for talkig.

erm, yeah, fuck loud music. really.

Alaizabel Cray · 07-27-2006, 08:58 PM

Pulled a muscle in my stomach while running. It's odd, it's not where you'd normally strain something, around the diaphragm, it's more like inside my rib cage. Either way though, cross-country has not been agreeing with me lately.

And it's friggin' way too hot outside!!!!!!! I'm dying, my God, what is with this weather???

Catch · 07-27-2006, 09:57 PM

I went to a gothic nightclub in t-shirt, short and sneakers. None of which were black.

(It's not the first time. Before leaving Salt Lake City, did a similar routine.)

Crying_Crimson_Tears · 08-01-2006, 01:14 PM

It's fucking hot out, my parents are annoying the shit outta me, and my mother is severly psychotic.

bulletsinmyhead · 08-01-2006, 01:33 PM

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Originally Posted by Lost&Confused14

Got BAD sunburn the other day and if someone just touchs my back it'll hurt and it even hurts when something just lightly rubs against the sunburn.

That happened to me once. Ouch! Take a bath in baking soda. It sounds stupid but it helps a bunch. Trust me.

sparklekittie · 08-02-2006, 02:35 AM

I had to go to a boring careers expo.
I bet I pissed somebody off.
I played 'cruisin with Lee Tamahori' instead of doing my english work. I made 800 bucks before getting busted though :P

cradle · 08-02-2006, 10:30 AM

I hate school so much. not because I have to get up every morning and work...I just hate the people there. I hat my classmates so much...not all of them just a select few, but I don't give a shit what they say or think about me. So I had bedhead one day because I cant get my hair down in the morning so I walk out looking like my hair got caught in a robert smith convention...anyway so some guy came up and said
"You didnt brush your hair this morning, that's nasty"
so I say "Fucker your mom is nasty."

He didn't like that...

Dark Templar · 08-02-2006, 02:49 PM

hehehe

Some people deserve it. Anyway, yesterday my girlfriend "took away my virginity" and to day i get a message on my phone from here where she brake up whit me.

cradle · 08-02-2006, 04:44 PM

Wow that sucks.
No offense but maybe you weren't as well sized as most guys...
or shes just a hoe...

Alaizabel Cray · 08-02-2006, 05:41 PM

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Originally Posted by Dark Templar

hehehe

Some people deserve it. Anyway, yesterday my girlfriend "took away my virginity" and to day i get a message on my phone from here where she brake up whit me.

She broke up with you over the phone? Wow, that's really pathetic of her. I mean, honestly. The only thing worse than that is over the internet, really. Or through snail mail when you're going to see them in person the next day anyways and could break up with them then without waiting for the mailman.

Alaizabel Cray · 08-09-2006, 09:14 PM

Ok, so: I'm on a few different medications to treat depression and anxiety, and I'm currently going off one of them. I've been not taking the stuff for a bit over a week now, and I feel like crap. The first 3 or 4 days were great, I was feeling awesome, no side-effects other than the expected physical reaction of sleeping practically 24/7 and getting the occasional brain zap. But now... I don't feel so good. I'm tired, I don't wanna do anything except sit in my room and read or listen to some music, I'm not as happy as I used to be. But I can't tell if this is just more of the withdrawals or if I honestly am getting depressed again and need to go back on the meds. It's driving me insane. It's nowhere near the depression I was in before I was medicated, but it's enough to be interfering with my daily life. I guess I'll give it until the 2 week mark and if I still feel crappy, go back on the stuff and call my doctor... Just wish I knew what was going on.

GalacticG · 08-09-2006, 11:11 PM

Well bad things that have happened to me this week:
-Yesterday- Could not sleep WORTH CRAP becouse I knew the next day was the first day of school and fell asleep around 1
-Today- woke up at 3:30 and then fel asleep and woke up at 5:30 to my alarm and took a shower, dressed, put on black nail polish, yada yada got to school and Guess what. Algabra 1 first hour. All i can think is, So. Tired. not 2xy+4x=Really stupid long answear. Then I find out that instead of walking forever to get ot my bus stop I could of walked a block to a NEW bus stop that NO ONE told me about.... So I was at the old bus stop at 6:20 when I could of been at the new one at 7 and gotten more sleep. -kicks at the air fustrated-. Then in computer class I had to connect all the perhpials to a computer -Easy peasy, mouse, moniter, keyboard etc...- I'm the first one done in the entire class, but guess what: I forgot to plug in the CAT5 wire -For computer challegned people, if thats not plugged in, and you have more then 1 computer in your house and they all have internet, you get no internet.- and I find out that my Cable is behind the desk fallen and these desks were not built for space, so I get down under the table to find it and I'm all "Screw this" so I just sit there while he lectures about rules. on top of all this, when I get dropped off at the new bus stop, its raining.... but only lightly so it was'nt too bad, I enjoyed the dark storm overhead. and when i got home it took me forever to get my black nail polish off becouse we are out of toliet paper -which is another bad thing that happened to me that we won't get into...- So I sat in the bathroom forever trying to get it off with qutips...

Yeah, it was an okay day. [sarcasm]I'm sure tomorrow will be EVEN SOO MUCH GREATER AND WONDERFUL ;D[/sarcasm]

Don't Look Behind You · 08-10-2006, 03:47 AM

Yup, looks like you had one shitty day. It always happens to me that i can't sleep on the night before the first day of school...before the first day of anything, actually. And putting on black nail polish is usualy what I do to kill time. See how good I understand you?

by the way, where on earth do you that you already have school?...I still have till the end of the month.

GalacticG · 08-10-2006, 06:27 AM

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Originally Posted by Don't Look Behind You

And putting on black nail polish is usualy what I do to kill time. See how good I understand you?

by the way, where on earth do you that you already have school?...I still have till the end of the month.

HAHHahahah that made me luagh a little bit; oh and I live in arizona, we get 2 months and 2 weeks off. kind of sucky. But I think we get out a bit sooner. I'm kinda crappy at my nail polish, but I'm getting better, its not really a skill a guy picks up off the bat, takes practice xD

cradle · 08-18-2006, 01:07 PM

I know this sound dramatic but whatever i don't care.

The love of my life just broke up with me for the second time in one year, I don't want to get hurt by her anymore, ive spent countless hours crying over a lost cause...and im done with it...

she said on the phone "one day you will find someone that youll love and cherish for the rest of your life."
i replied, "i thought that was you..."

three months ago she left me for a guy named jonathan.
we get back together a month later...during the time that me and her are going back out he doesnt talk to her at all...now an hour after she broke up with me again...he calls me...then not ten minutes ago she calls me on 3 way with him on the line...she PROMISED that she wouldnt go out with him again...

but then again she also promised that shed never break my heart again...