Rant Thread

[AlKilyu]

Originally Posted by Empty_Purple_Stars

Blow...Touch him and come

hahahahahahahahahaha

Oh and TStone: What's the weather like there now? :twisted:

edit: I really hope you are ok, I don't mean to make light of that.

I need to grow up or get laid, and I just don't see either happening anytime soon.

[bexxle]

What is with the grow up or get laid comments on this forum?

There could possibly be other reasons as well.

Suddenly lost interest in my own rant.

[HerGhostInTheFog]

i have a fucking sunburn, i hate pop-ups, and my computer has shut down the mutha fuckin internet like 10 times in the past 2 minutes and i am sick as fuck of it. damn you laptop as only internet source! damn you!

[gingerbreadwench]

:cry:
I just found out that someone I've had strong feelings for, and who has had strong feelings for me, is now seeing someone else. What gets me is that this person didn't even TELL ME. Didn't even say, "Oh, by the way Kate... I'm with Bitchface McGee [not really her name, but what I call her] now." But nooo... we're just acting like nothing is wrong, aren't we?

grr.

[Jane13]

That sucks... maybe he's one of those guys that for some reason thinks girls like jerks? I dunno...

Originally Posted by AlKilyu

Oh and TStone: What's the weather like there now? :twisted:

edit: I really hope you are ok, I don't mean to make light of that.

I need to grow up or get laid, and I just don't see either happening anytime soon.

Weather’s fine, wish you were here…

On a more serious note, just got power back today, got water back yesterday, so everything is almost back to normal. I’m missing my entire pool enclosure (watched it fly into the sky Friday night, what fun) as well as my privacy fence (going around the neighborhood picking up 30 plus sections weighted down with water and broken 4x4’s still attached does not make for a good time) have a few holes in my roof thanks to the ceiling fans (previously attached to my pool enclosure) which slammed down hard enough to make my asshole pucker…and the list goes on, but I’m thankful for the return of AC.

Fuck everything else, give me AC. You haven’t lived until you’ve spent a few nights thinking you might have a mild intestinal track infection, only to discover that your sphincter can and does sweat…this amid the lovely sound of generators and mosquitoes, and the occasional hot bodies slapping nasty fuck via all the open windows from the neighbors...

Now, all I hear is the glorious sound of my air conditioner. Sir Frances Bacon, youze a fine motherfucker, thankyou.

Hey Tstone...it cant rain all the time. Hehehehe.

Seriously, I'm glad you're okay.

[gingerbreadwench]

Originally Posted by Jane13

That sucks... maybe he's one of those guys that for some reason thinks girls like jerks? I dunno...

Hmmm... well it's not a guy, but a good theory nonetheless.

[bexxle]

Back when I was growin' up, Back in the Day. There was Springstein, Madonna way before Marilyn Manson. 1985 man. . . 1985. It was like totally awesome. 9 years old baby.

FOURTH GRADE RULES!

[AlKilyu]

Glad to see you made it through ok.

You know they say everything happens for a reason...

Originally Posted by TStone

Fuck everything else, give me AC. You haven’t lived until you’ve spent a few nights thinking you might have a mild intestinal track infection, only to discover that your sphincter can and does sweat…this amid the lovely sound of generators and mosquitoes, and the occasional hot bodies slapping nasty fuck via all the open windows from the neighbors...

...and that quote is the resaon. That beautiful, beautiful quote.

[Jane13]

Originally Posted by gingerbreadwench

Hmmm... well it's not a guy, but a good theory nonetheless.

:oops: :oops: sorry :oops: :oops:

[AlKilyu]

I have a rant, but it's my own fault.

I've known for a couple of months that my favorite movie was to be re-released in select theaters. I told everyone I knew, and little by little people have had to back out (it is summer, after all) and I even rented it for Manimal and EPS to watch at their house.

But as I drove by the theater today on my way to lunch, it hit me how it would be nice to have a date for that movie. Not a sexual tyranisarous, just someone to grab me at all of the many creepy parts.

And I have no one to blame but myself. I could have set up something all this time and just never did. Besides if EPS and Manimal didn't approve of someone I selected, we'd both get purple nurpled.

I've seen it already, it just would be nice to see it in the theater.

[Loy]

(note-this rant is in letter form in the hopes that it'll help bruing some semblance of order to the incohateness raging in my head right now...it's laso directed to the Seattle gothic community, so I hope ONLY goths from Seattle will take any offence to anything I have to say. For everybody else, enjoy)

Dear Seattle Gothic Community (aka SeaGoth),

I'm posting this letter here on Gothic.Net with the knowlege that a lot of you read what's on here, and because I am no longer welcome on your board (which I'll get to momentarilly).

Over the course of last week, I lost three people I cared very deeply about. One from a car accident, one from illicit substance use, and one...well, nobody really knows what the fuck happened to her (hopefully that will change once the toxicology report comes in next month). It is in regards to this third friend that this is in regards to.

See, she was an active member of the SeaGoth community (both online and in real life). I'm sure you know who I'm speaking of, so I won't waste any time bringing her name up here. There's really no need for it, and I'm not going to drag those uninvolved with the situation into what has been an ongoing squabble between me and you that has been in a state of detente...a state I am breaking right now.

I'm not breaking detente for notoriety sake, but because what I want to say HAS to be heard, and I know that it'd be shut down if I tried bringing it up to you personally (and no club owner would allow me to post up a rant...something I am understanding of). Listen and listen good-You are all, and have proven yourselves over and over again, a bunch of horrible, horrible human beings, and you should either grow the fuck up or slither away and die like the reptilian fascimiles of human beings you are.

Why am I being so harsh? Here's why-

When news of my friends death spread, the great majority of you came out in droves to "comfort" those from her inner circle and each other. Here's the thing-none of you really care. None of you were ever close enough to her to call her anything other than an acquaintance, and even then she was nothing more than background fodder...just another girl in black that smoked too many cloves and was on too much medication for the faulty wiring in her head. While she was alive, she was nothing more than another face you said "hi" to every few weeks to not seem so self-centered.

But now...now it's "oh my God, she was such an AMAZIN person...an inspiration to us all...the most angelic person I've ever met...my best friend in all of existence...."

I;'m just curious-how did you come tyo this conclusion about somebody you would've refused to give the time of day to if she had asked?

Answer-You haven't. You're not passing off your condolences to me or her inner circle because you actually give a shit, or because she was such a "sweetheart" (any of us would tell you that she could be a judgemental little cunt...we'd also tell you about her caustic sense of humor that took no prisoners, which was why we all loved her...of course you missed the two most important things in dialogue-asking and listening). No, you're doing what I temed "Death-Fucking"-using another persons tragedy to make yourselves seem like decent human beings.

Fuck You! Fuck you for allowing your personal insecurities to turn you into a bunch of opportunisticly venal shits! Fuck you for insulting my friends' memory, and her friends' dignity for for a bit of personal gain! Just fuck you and garrot yourselves with the full-of-shit intestines that make up your soul!

See, we see right through your charade, and we've silently let it go because...well, we're a bit weighed down by other things right now...

I, however, am sick of this shit. I have been for a long fucking time. You all know for a FACT thatthis isn't the first time SeaGoth's penchant for Death-Fucking (and the widespread acceptance of it) has messed up the honest grieving of people who've lost loved ones. What pisses me off is that not only is this crap tolerated by the community, but any dialogue about it is shut down and weaseled out of.

In fact, it was my bringing it up that got me kicked off the board...OK, to be honest it was my bluntness and the discomfort it brought up that got me kicked off. However, it was my bringing up the Death-Fucking in regards to a total and complete bastard a bunch of you dubbed "Saint" (including a painting that portrayed said bastard with a gun and a halo) that broke the camels back. I have neither illusions nor regrets in regards to my getting kicked off. What I do have is anger-anger that nothing I said got through, as your recent actions have proved.

How many times do I (and plenty of others) have to scream at the top of our lungs "using a tragedy to make yourselves seem better than you actually are is just plain wrong" before you fucking listen? How many times are you shitheads going to weasel out of dealing with this?

Actually, WHY do you constantly weasel out of an honest discussion of this phenomena? I have my theories, but I (and anybody else hurt by you fucks) deserve an answer directly from your mouths.

See, I'm generally a nice guy (caustic, but with a heart of gold...though I won't exactly advertise the fact). I have a lot of close friends in many different communities/subcultures/neo-tribes/whatever, and I've never seen Death-Fucking performed as widely in any other group as I have by SeaGoth. One person told me "it's a goth thing". If that's true, I should be out there dismembering every god-damned clove-smoking, red-wine and latte drinking, pretensious, pedagougic fuck calling themselves an artist just to make sure that fucked-up gene that makes you this way doesn't get passed onto another generation.

However, I know it's not a goth thing. Why? Because I've never experienced it from any of the goths from (for example) San Francisco...or Vancouver...or SLC...or any other place I've been to/know people from. In fact, most goths don't tolerate this shit...let me rephrase that-most PEOPLE don't tolerate this shit! Most people know that this shit is fucked up beyond all belief.

So why don't you get this? Maybe because you are so insecure about yourselves that you'll scratch for anything to make yourselves better (oh how I wish I could've seen the looks on your faces when you read Dan Savage's quip on goth girls in last weeks "savage Love", since I'm sure you know he was speaking specifically about the SeaGoth chicks)? Maybe your parents abused you so much that you feel a subconascious need to hurt everybody around you? I can't sday for sure until you fucking speak for yourselves.

All I can say is this-Shut the fuck up and leave us alone! See, w3e've lost a person we cared about, and your Death Fucking hurts us in a way that's more painful than you will ever know, and unlike yourselves, we see you for the shallow apathetic wastes of flesh and organs that you really are!

Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm going to drink myself into an alcohol-poisoning-induced coma (which I started doing last Saturday...speaking of which, a point of contension-some of you started talking shit because I missed your groups "grieving" thing on Saturday night, opting to go to my friends Smut party. Let me explain, A-my friend was planning on coming with me, and B-given choice between hanging out with a bunch of shitheads who I'd rather rip the heads from or watching hot girls playing tonsil-hockey as they were stripping each other down in a swimming pool full of jello...well, like they say, Jello goes with everything). I know it's a crutch, but I've done this before, and sadly enough, I know I'll do it again.

Sincerely,
Loy

PS-Another problem I had with SeaGoth was your fetishization of Asian culture. Obne part a number of you missed out on, though, is Hara-Kiri, which is ritualistic suicide performed when one has brought shame upon their clan...please think about this.

Well, it’s been three weeks and a banner year for me, why the hell not another hurricane? I’m a bit more prepared for this one. Sent everyone up north, I have my bottle of vodka and canister of juice; it’s all good. Francis should blow in around 2am Saturday, I’ll be in Tampa flicking my fat drunken middle finger at the bitch, and hope it pisses her off enough to take the remainder of my roof.

[OmmadDawn]

Originally Posted by TStone

Francis should blow in around 2am Saturday, I’ll be in Tampa flicking my fat drunken middle finger at the bitch, and hope it pisses her off enough to take the remainder of my roof.

I thought Florida WAS America's middle finger. Which is where the phrase "Middle-Finger America" comes from?

Seriously, what a horrible week for you.
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Well now... no, no... now, we ought to be mad at the government not mad at the people.
Takin' it again. Again! Again! Takin' it again.
I mean, yeah, well... wha-what're ya gonna do?
America is waiting for a message of some sort or another."
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[TeapotScar]

Yikes, Loy, I know I haven't really talked specifically to you too much on these threads, but what you're going though, I do want to offer my support. I can't imagine what it's like for you, but I'm doing my best, and I'm guessing it's like shit. If you need to rant further or just talk, I'll be here.

[TeapotScar]

Alright... I have a rant.

I'm just so fucking upset, nothing ever gets better for mor than a few days, no matter how drastically the outside switches and changes, inside there's still the personal hell that nothing can seem to give me the light to break out of. And if I did break out of it, by some remote chance, what's out there that's better? i can't even think of anything that would make me happy that this world has to offer. Fucking bullshit....I enjoy the little happy moments in life, but the thing that makes me hate it isn't that, it's the fact that when life is at its realest, when I'm completely alone and all I'm doing is feeling, I can't find happiness or peace or anything. I don't know what to do anymore, I've changed in every way possible but the force of self-loathing always sucks me back into my worst nightmare. I just want to be happy on my own.

[Maimy]

Fuck me gently with a chain saw. It wasn't enough to go through a flood which killed a woman less than a mile from my home, caused (at only the *first* estimate) $60,000,000 in damage to my city, and may well have ruined the financial lives of many of my friends. Today, I took the dog for a vacation - because she was so damned good DURING aforementioned flood-inducing Tropical Depression.

We got on a boat.

It tried very, very, very hard to sink.

With me, my aunt, my cousin, her 3-year-old daughter, four friends, and my dog on board.

I want nothing in this world but a fucking backrub. And, of the two people who would give me one - my father and my lover - one is DEAD (Happy 67th birthday today, daddy) and one is four thousand miles away.

I haven't had a near-death-experience. But I had a near-watching-people-die experience, and it was not festive. Fucking bizarre damned feeling.







Apart from consuming and from the bathtub, kids, I have had ENOUGH of water, for quite a long time now.

Frances, you fucking smarmy-assed hurricane: Stay the FUCK away from me.

[Disfunction]

Ok, time for my little whining...

-I was just informed that I've been kicked out of my band.
-My girlfriend and I, while we still care about each other don't know how to talk anymore...
-All of my friends are worried about me
-I'm possibly not going to graduate this year, despite last year having been my intended graduation year...
-My depression has kicked in again.

[Panther]

Why is it that no matter what I, I'm still seen as only one thing?

I could stand up naked and screaming on a table in a library, and nobody would say anything but 'look at that fat girl.'

I could walk into the St. Whatever PTA meetings wearing a Bettei Paige dominatrix outfit, cracking my whip at the principal of the school, and all I would hear is 'Who's the fat girl?'

I don't need your shit. I realize that I'm overweight. But guess what? 70% of the time, you are too! You fucking hypocritical bastards. Do you like being refered to as that fat bastard over there? No? Thought not. Me either. can't say anythign nice, keep your mouth shut, thank you.

And don't think you get the right to make fun of me because you have a higher metabolism or healthier eating habits, either. Because you've got your problems too. For example, being a big ball of shit for bothering someone when you're a DJ at their relative's house.

If you're paid to work a party, you damn well better keep your snide comments to yourself. You don't want the bored McDonalds worker to tell you to shove your Big Mac up your hypercritical ass next time you order a steaming pile of grease, now do you?

No, you'd report them to the manager.

Not having a manager gives you no excuse not to be cruel to relatives of the woman paying you.

Oh, and for your information, your little roadie boys need to realize when a woman's looking at you in interrest, and when she's looking at what you're doing in interrest. Two seperate things.

[OmmadDawn]

Originally Posted by TeapotScar

...the force of self-loathing always sucks me back into my worst nightmare. I just want to be happy on my own.

I have these problems. It's almost worse to hear someone else having them.

I've been able to develop intellectual perspective to combat my self-loathing. I find it's like some pain medications. If you wait for too long for it to get too bad, it becomes harder to get rid of the pain. When I feel some self-loathing coming on, right away I review the reasons why I'm not so loathesome, that I'm not worse than regular people. Sometimes that comes by belittling them (they are stupid normies for gosh sakes), others by looking to my strengths. I keep in mind that it's just a mental manifestation of a physical quirk of my brain, not objectively real.

I can take time alone a few days at a time, but find it progressively harder as time goes on to actually enjoy things. Yeah, I'm describing loneliness, but I think it's a very specific form. Once again, it's an emotional manifestation of brain structure. Though it's probably genetically programmed and apparently useful for our species to have. In these cases it's not useful for the individual and causes misery. Maybe you can take solace in the idea that it's not due to weakness or stupidity on your part. It's the way humans are designed, and it means you have good genetics.

[bexxle]

I got banned!

[Empty_Purple_Stars]

Originally Posted by bexxle

I got banned!

And Rebanned!!

:lol:

Isn't that a double negative?

:roll:

[TeapotScar]

Ommad, I hear what you're saying, especially when you suggested dealing with the self-loathing the second it comes on. I like that suggestion, I just hope I have the foresight for it, and the willpower to face it, you know? no amount of other peoples' advice seems to be able to give me the inspiration to find will power. :cry:

[OmmadDawn]

Originally Posted by TeapotScar

no amount of other peoples' advice seems to be able to give me the inspiration to find will power. :cry:

And that's the horrible Catch-22. If you had the emotional resources to begin with, it wouldn't be such a problem. It's like trying to pull yourself up by your bootstraps.

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