Greetings!

Opteron_Man · 05-16-2009, 05:43 AM

Greetings, I'm back!

I had to take a break from Gnet for a few weeks. Before I left; I was acting really foolish and saying far too much nonsense. Not to mention; being a total jerk to everybody. Uuuuhhhh, and the stupid threads I made! *groan* Lol!

Really, I don't blame anybody for being pissed off at me. I was acting like a real self centered PRICK I guess. I don't like who I was.

Anyways if it matters, I'd like to say that I feel much MUCH better now!
I delt with a bunch of shit, pulled myself out of the depression. I took the valuable advice I learned from people here and outside Gnet; and I put it all into practice.

I enjoy this site too much to go away for good, so here I am!

A warm thanks to the members who helped me and said kind words.

Lady Christine · 05-16-2009, 11:18 AM

Welcome Back!

Duane · 05-16-2009, 11:26 AM

It's not as easy as leaving for a couple of weeks, and then coming back and making a new intro. Welcome back, though.

HumanePain · 05-16-2009, 02:58 PM

Welcome back man. Read much, post little, and when you post make it quality stuff.

KontanKarite · 05-16-2009, 06:47 PM

God, it's like G.net has idiot herpes.

strange_pleasure · 05-16-2009, 08:33 PM

It's good to take time and work on yourself, I don't think anyone can fault you for that, regardless of wether or not they welcome you back.

Opteron_Man · 05-17-2009, 12:20 AM

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Originally Posted by strange_pleasure

It's good to take time and work on yourself, I don't think anyone can fault you for that, regardless of wether or not they welcome you back.

I agree strange_pleasure. I knew I'd recieve some sour "welcomes" from the more bitter members when I returned here. So I am not surprised in the least, nor do I care really.

However, I really appreciate all of the warm welcomes from the more mature, kind hearted, and level headed members. Those are the ones who make Gnet really special. Atleast I think so.

Opteron_Man · 05-17-2009, 12:21 AM

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Originally Posted by Duane

Welcome back, though.

Thanks Duane

Opteron_Man · 05-17-2009, 12:22 AM

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Originally Posted by Lady Christine

Welcome Back!

Thanks! *smile* It's good to BE back!

Opteron_Man · 05-17-2009, 12:26 AM

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Originally Posted by HumanePain

Welcome back man. Read much, post little, and when you post make it quality stuff.

HumanePain! Thanks for the warm welcome! Yes, I agree; "quality" above "quantity". I sure did alot of thinking and fixing. Good to be back!

Opteron_Man · 05-17-2009, 12:27 AM

I like your new avatar KontanKarite.

Sir Canvas Corpsey · 05-17-2009, 04:08 AM

You read HP's post then you reply 4 fucking times instead of copying and pasting and inputting quote tags into one bigger post. Then you follow up a 5th time with some inane comment about the avatar of someone who doesn't like you, probably to get try and make amends, when it's not going to happen, especially with THAT kind of effort and attitude.

You obviously haven't learned a thing in your brief absence, not only that, but refer to the people who "like" you or "treat you okay" as mature, level headed, and kind hearted this implying the other to be immature, irrational and cruel, which is you just being a fucking whiney baby like usual, except this time you've attempted it slightly more subtly than your usual, blatant frothing at the mouth and moaning.

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Not to mention; being a total jerk to everybody. Uuuuhhhh, and the stupid threads I made! *groan* Lol!

Don't mock me with your shitty facade of returning a changed and charismatic person.

Opteron_Man · 05-17-2009, 04:50 AM

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Originally Posted by Sir Canvas Corpsey

You read HP's post then you reply 4 fucking times instead of copying and pasting and inputting quote tags into one bigger post. Then you follow up a 5th time with some inane comment about the avatar of someone who doesn't like you, probably to get try and make amends, when it's not going to happen, especially with THAT kind of effort and attitude.

You obviously haven't learned a thing in your brief absence, not only that, but refer to the people who "like" you or "treat you okay" as mature, level headed, and kind hearted this implying the other to be immature, irrational and cruel, which is you just being a fucking whiney baby like usual, except this time you've attempted it slightly more subtly than your usual, blatant frothing at the mouth and moaning.

Don't mock me with your shitty facade of returning a changed and charismatic person.

I am not mocking you, infact, untill you poped up here with this; I actully forgot you existed, lol! I commented on the avatar because I liked it, not to make "amends" of any kind what so ever. I am well aware that he doesn't like me, that's perfectly okay with me. You read FAR too deep into my words. Chill out.

Also, I didn't say anything about suddenly being charismatic.

Opteron_Man · 05-17-2009, 05:18 AM

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Originally Posted by Sir Canvas Corpsey

Don't mock me with your shitty facade of returning a changed and charismatic person.

You don't understand that I was deeply depressed for a long time (nearly a year). I am not actully putting up any kind of facade, I licked that depression with some outside help and now I am not weighed down anymore. I did some heavy thinking (yes I can do that) and I thought about how stupid, and out of control I was behaving. I didn't like where that was heading, so like any other human being, I am dusting myself off, learnning from my mistakes, accepting my limitations, and putting what I retained into practice.

I wouldn't have offered this information but when you nastily replyed on my thread, I responded. I don't want you to like me, that is never ever going to happen. That is clear. I am just saying this in my own defence.

I sure am not expecting anybody to welcome me with open arms, I just wanted to come back, not sneak back.

Sir Canvas Corpsey · 05-17-2009, 05:29 AM

I'm going to break this down for your benefit:

Well you weren't mocking me directly (no fucking way!) the post presents a general mockery of us, you're trying to present this repentant and likable new person that hardly anyone with half a brain (or who isn't kind to the point of fault) will believe is real. I simply personalised it for the sake of my post.

If someone doesn't like you, WHY are you talking to them in any shape or form, if they don't like you, they don't want to hear from you, about ANYTHING.

I don't think I'm reading too deep at all, what you posted was emotional, I'm simply drawing out the aspects of it.

When you maintain a stable social life that doesn't end in you drowning in an emotional quagmire because things didn't go your way, for three months (only three months!? I know I set the bar low) then you can tell me to chill out.

You don't have to actually say something to "say" it, the fact you think you're charismatic and a "cool" person that people will want to talk to you now is implied in your posts.

Sir Canvas Corpsey · 05-17-2009, 05:36 AM

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Originally Posted by Opteron_Man

You don't understand that I was deeply depressed for a long time (nearly a year). I am not actully putting up any kind of facade, I licked that depression with some outside help and now I am not weighed down anymore. I did some heavy thinking (yes I can do that) and I thought about how stupid, and out of control I was behaving. I didn't like where that was heading, so like any other human being, I am dusting myself off, learnning from my mistakes, accepting my limitations, and putting what I retained into practice.

I wouldn't have offered this information but when you nastily replyed on my thread, I responded. I don't want you to like me, that is never ever going to happen. That is clear. I am just saying this in my own defence.

I sure am not expecting anybody to welcome me with open arms, I just wanted to come back, not sneak back.

No, I do understand that you were deeply depressed, however breaking free of that depression does not logically justify this attitude. You haven't become "happy" or not as "sad", your core personality dynamics have shifted.

I've seen enough people suffering diagnosed depression (Y'all are going to have to trust me that this was the real deal) and from pre-depression, to in depression to post-depression while their life was generally disrupted those core dynamics did not change.

I wouldn't be saying this if it wasn't for the fact I KNOW you're not saying things naturally, you're forcing a different and unnatural (for you) persona forward to say things for you. Whether or not you intentionally do it is another issue entirely, but no one can be so unaware of the masks they wear, can they?

Opteron_Man · 05-17-2009, 06:32 AM

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Originally Posted by Sir Canvas Corpsey

No, I do understand that you were deeply depressed, however breaking free of that depression does not logically justify this attitude. You haven't become "happy" or not as "sad", your core personality dynamics have shifted.

I've seen enough people suffering diagnosed depression (Y'all are going to have to trust me that this was the real deal) and from pre-depression, to in depression to post-depression while their life was generally disrupted those core dynamics did not change.

I wouldn't be saying this if it wasn't for the fact I KNOW you're not saying things naturally, you're forcing a different and unnatural (for you) persona forward to say things for you. Whether or not you intentionally do it is another issue entirely, but no one can be so unaware of the masks they wear, can they?

I didn't know you knew about that. Well you caught me; I AM forcing myself, none of this is natural to me at all. I am forcing myself to think differently, and do things differently. Forcing everything. I want to change so badly, I am reading how to talk to people, to act to make friends. To be likeable. The person I turned into, I don't like him. So I am trying to change. I don't know if I will succeed, but I will try. I rewrote this five times now, I can't explain this right. Sorry. All I want is to blend with people, and stand among my peers and be accepted. I am tired of being so confused and sorry and alone.

I am doing everything, to read the advice that I am being givin here and everywhere else, to remember it all. To understand how people work, and how I should behave. There are so many things I don't understand, but I want to understand! I don't know what else to say. I am sorry I gave you attitude.

viscus · 05-17-2009, 09:32 AM

Opteron Man was gone?

Oh well, whatever.

Duane · 05-17-2009, 09:42 AM

Dude, a person that deep in depression doesn't just bounce back in a couple of weeks. It takes months to get out of it... are you taking prescription anti-depressants?

KontanKarite · 05-17-2009, 11:34 AM

I simply don't understand why he apparently NEEDS this forum.

That's the cold sad truth about it in essence. He needs this forum.

Joker_in_the_Pack · 05-17-2009, 11:48 AM

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Originally Posted by KontanKarite

I simply don't understand why he apparently NEEDS this forum.

Because he's probably this lame in real life?

Sir Canvas Corpsey · 05-17-2009, 03:40 PM

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Originally Posted by Opteron_Man

I didn't know you knew about that. Well you caught me; I AM forcing myself, none of this is natural to me at all. I am forcing myself to think differently, and do things differently. Forcing everything. I want to change so badly, I am reading how to talk to people, to act to make friends. To be likeable. The person I turned into, I don't like him. So I am trying to change. I don't know if I will succeed, but I will try. I rewrote this five times now, I can't explain this right. Sorry. All I want is to blend with people, and stand among my peers and be accepted. I am tired of being so confused and sorry and alone.

I am doing everything, to read the advice that I am being givin here and everywhere else, to remember it all. To understand how people work, and how I should behave. There are so many things I don't understand, but I want to understand! I don't know what else to say. I am sorry I gave you attitude.

If you want to be "happy", be "happy" as yourself not as someone else.

That is all.