Support - Page 4

Crying_Crimson_Tears · 08-23-2008, 09:09 AM

Thanks guys. It does feel like a nightmare. I keep wishing I'd wake up. I want to wake up now. I want Christian to be back with me and be back in my arms again.

I keep thinking of him constantly. Even when I'm "distracted" every little thing I say or do makes me think of him.....

Jaye Jang · 08-24-2008, 10:37 AM

It's going to be that way, duck. My girl's on the other side of the country and everything reminds me of her. Thinking about moving back East, just so we can be a family again -- but I'd have to quit my job and find one there (which could be a challenge).

Hope they catch the perp, and you have a happy reunion in your future. In the meantime, hang in there and keep your chin up.

Crying_Crimson_Tears · 08-24-2008, 03:28 PM

Thanks. I do have hopes for his and I's future. I know it's an unlikely possibility, but I still do have hope. And I am noticing with each passing day, things are getting easier.

HumanePain · 08-24-2008, 03:47 PM

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Originally Posted by Crying_Crimson_Tears

And I am noticing with each passing day, things are getting easier.

I knew your resilient young strength would return!

Crying_Crimson_Tears · 08-24-2008, 03:52 PM

Thank you Humane.

I am noticing that as days pass, I am more and more close to a semi-normal life. Things don't feel quite so bad anymore.

Of course all the support I have had and still getting is helping me quite a bit.

Geoluhread · 08-24-2008, 04:08 PM

*huge hug*

Crying_Crimson_Tears · 08-24-2008, 04:12 PM

Thank you.

*Huge Hug Back*

Renatus · 08-24-2008, 11:39 PM

Hug? We're here for you, if you need someone to talk to when HP isn't available I'd be willing to pitch in as well.

Crying_Crimson_Tears · 08-25-2008, 12:57 PM

Thanks.

PM me and give me your AIM or Yahoo! s/n.

Email works too.

Crying_Crimson_Tears · 08-30-2008, 09:33 PM

I got some news on Christian.

His cousin saw me walking to school the other day and gave me a ride the rest of the way. She told me that Christian is doing "okay" and that he's connected with some of the kids there...

That last part worries me a little, I don't know why, but it does. She told me that his step dad, his grandma (his mom's mom), and his mom's sister go and visit him every Saturday.

I also know now which facility he is in...

Oh, I also made it through my first week in school. It sucked bad, because I miss him a lot right now. School is hard for me to adjust to because he was with me on my every single movement there, and now he's not. I don't really have that anymore. I'm finding school to be a BIG stress factor right now.

I'm open to suggestions right now on how to survive it a little better...

Crying_Crimson_Tears · 09-01-2008, 05:00 PM

Even more news today...

They are putting together a list of people who can contact him that are friends.

Soon I might be able to write him.

HumanePain · 09-01-2008, 06:56 PM

Wow, being able to write to him? Cool, but know that all prisoner mail is read by the guards. That is amazing that his grandmother is visiting him, such forgiveness!

Crying_Crimson_Tears · 09-02-2008, 12:33 PM

It is amazing she's visiting him. I mean yeah she loves him, but she's old fashioned and a hardcore Catholic.

Anyway I already knew that shit ass people would read the mail I sent. Doesn't matter to me as long as I get to write to him...

Underwater Ophelia · 09-02-2008, 01:24 PM

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Originally Posted by Crying_Crimson_Tears

It is amazing she's visiting him. I mean yeah she loves him, but she's old fashioned and a hardcore Catholic.

Anyway I already knew that shit ass people would read the mail I sent. Doesn't matter to me as long as I get to write to him...

They're just doing their jobs, and honestly, it's to protect him.

Necrophagist · 09-02-2008, 01:52 PM

Really sorry about you, your boyfriend, and you his mother. *hugs*

Chin up, CCT.

Tam Li Hua · 09-02-2008, 02:02 PM

CCT: Even Catholics are taught to forgive.

Regardless, just be happy that you are able to write to him, even if the guards have to read it!

Crying_Crimson_Tears · 09-02-2008, 05:33 PM

I am happy once I get to write him.

MollyMac · 09-03-2008, 06:29 PM

Even then, and even if he never sees them, write it all out in letters you don't send through their censors. Even though he can;t hear it, there's a lot you need to say to him, even if you can't. Write it out. Something about the scratch of pen and ink on paper is a release when the words are there, on the page, and no longer in your head.

Crying_Crimson_Tears · 09-07-2008, 06:24 PM

That's a good idea Molly. I'll try that.

Thank you.

Crying_Crimson_Tears · 09-28-2008, 06:05 PM

I just got back (well actually 2 weeks ago) from another hospitalization. My ex girlfriend and I had a blowout and my ex friend was going around calling me a pyscho whore and I blew up.

I ended up trashing my school counselor's office and almost breaking my hand on a door.

And lately missing Christian has been even more so than usual.

Godslayer Jillian · 09-28-2008, 06:50 PM

Wait, what?

HumanePain · 09-28-2008, 07:16 PM

Oh Crimson...Check your PMs.

Crying_Crimson_Tears · 09-29-2008, 06:54 AM

I did.

Oh and the last sentence of my post was supposed to say:

"And I have been missing Christian more than usual lately."

HumanePain · 12-05-2008, 07:43 PM

Crimson, it has been a month since we heard from you. Are you ok?

HumanePain · 12-10-2008, 02:17 PM

FINALLY heard back from Crimson today, she's ok! Whew!