Rant Thread - Page 66

winged_dreams · 01-09-2006, 10:34 PM

I don't like family problems. Not at all. And it's affecting my grandmother and my aunt and uncle the worst. *sighs*

WolfMoon · 01-09-2006, 10:48 PM

Tom, I can't respond to the hurt you're going through right now. It hurts to think that you're going through that hell. I feel for you, luv. Have a drink on me.

*HUGZ*

Empty_Purple_Stars · 01-09-2006, 10:52 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by WolfMoon

Tom, I can't respond to the hurt you're going through right now. It hurts to think that you're going through that hell. I feel for you, luv. Have a drink on me.

*HUGZ*

You can have a drink on me Wolfie..

You name the Anatomical Spot to sip from and I'll bring the Rum..

*Evil Grin*

Hugs and Thai Stick for The Bard.
I'm sorry you're hurting.
No words are adequate.
We
Bleed
.

winged_dreams · 01-09-2006, 11:02 PM

It's really nice to know that we all have each other for support.

Empty_Purple_Stars · 01-09-2006, 11:09 PM

Yeah, I have shed pints of blood here over the Years..

Some of it was even my Own.

*Snort*

But seriously, at least someone here is always around with a Hug and a Loaded Shotgun.

winged_dreams · 01-09-2006, 11:12 PM

I'll just take a hug thank you very much!

Empty_Purple_Stars · 01-09-2006, 11:15 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by winged_dreams

I'll just take a hug thank you very much!

Dude, you just never know when a Loaded Shotgun will come in handy...

*Twitch*

" Friends Help You Move. Real Friends Help You Move Bodies. "

winged_dreams · 01-09-2006, 11:17 PM

Meh...I hope I never have to ever deal with one of those so...

Empty_Purple_Stars · 01-10-2006, 08:07 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Santarea

We all have our hells with us. The only ones who are alone in it are the ones who don't open their eyes.

If you close a wound before you clean it, it will fester. Best to get it out so the scar is smaller.

A-Motherfucking-Men to that Beautiful..

AlKilyu · 01-10-2006, 09:10 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Santarea

We all have our hells with us. The only ones who are alone in it are the ones who don't open their eyes.

If you close a wound before you clean it, it will fester. Best to get it out so the scar is smaller.

True, very true, but in my case I did reach out and in a rare instance no one was there. I never thought to get online and talk about it, which might have helped, but anymore I just assume keep it all in. I don't suggest the same for others, it makes for some baaaad dreams.

Empty_Purple_Stars · 01-10-2006, 09:14 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by AlKilyu

True, very true, but in my case I did reach out and in a rare instance no one was there. I never thought to get online and talk about it, which might have helped, but anymore I just assume keep it all in. I don't suggest the same for others, it makes for some baaaad dreams.

You did the hardest part..

Surviving and Reaching Out Again..

Doesn't matter how long it did or did not take you to do it.

WolfMoon · 01-10-2006, 02:47 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Empty_Purple_Stars

You can have a drink on me Wolfie..

You name the Anatomical Spot to sip from and I'll bring the Rum..

*Evil Grin*

Hugs and Thai Stick for The Bard.
I'm sorry you're hurting.
No words are adequate.
We
Bleed
.

I like rum. Makes me all cuddly.

Just let me know when you need that body moved.

WolfMoon · 01-10-2006, 02:49 PM

Al, you're a survivor. Thank you for sharing. Nothing wrong with that. Makes you alot stronger than wankers like me. lol

joyslayer · 01-10-2006, 03:46 PM

I think the reason why some people are so fucked up just occured to me. Memories! It is all their damn fault. Now that I Think about it, I wouldn't be so suicidal if I wouldn't have rememberd Josh. But then again, if you are not rememberd after death, you never existed. But thats not a good example. Like when I look back at when I was r a p e d, I would not be so effected if I wouldn't have such detailed memories of it. How cold the floor was, the laughter coming from them. I would be a totally different person if I didn't remember anything from the past. I mean, I don't want to forget, but atlest I know who to blame. Because blaming something makes it just seem bearable.

joyslayer · 01-10-2006, 04:53 PM

Yeah, your right. wallowing is not the answer. I just can't help it. It feels like guilt. *shakes head* I dunno, I am a messy wreck.

Circle V · 01-10-2006, 05:46 PM

Things in the past affect us, even if we don't conciously think of them often.

I am a different person than I used to be as little as nine months ago because of my memories. To summarize the cause of my past "angst," I wasn't taken seriously (or thought that I wasn't) by my friends. When I was alone, I would get pissed and violent-- on top of the stereotypical teenage angst, of course-- but, when I was with my friends, I would try obsessively to please them, embarrassing myself to get attention. When I left, I would hate myself for doing that, and vow never to do it again. I would, and the wheel of stupid grievances kept turning.

Now, I constantly (and quite unintentionally) try to make myself seem superior. It shows in lots of ways-- I insult my friends indirectly, among other things. I try to keep people guessing, never sure if I'm kidding or not, so that they can't really know who I am and judge me for it. Many of my morbid, pessimistic thoughts and words are bullshit, fabrications, but I can't help but think that most of the optimistic thoughts that I keep to myself are just the same. I can't help but feel like everything I do is fake, even though I devote so very much to being different.

That wasn't intended to be a true rant-- more of quick reply to Joyslayer. I got carried away. I apologize.

joyslayer · 01-10-2006, 05:54 PM

It's no problem Circle. I was thinking back, I was different not two months ago. Not only in the mind, but also in appearance.

joyslayer · 01-10-2006, 08:26 PM

I think maybe "diamonds of wisdom." Well put edible!

Empty_Purple_Stars · 01-10-2006, 11:38 PM

So my doctor ordered a particularly nasty test for me to check on the status of the Obstruction I have.

The Imaging Center calls today for scheduling and instructions..

The Scheduling nurse starts to direct me on what to do the night before the Exam.

I listen to everything she has to say, and proceed to describe the reason I am having the Procedure and the amount of Bleeding I have been having..

She puts me on hold and the Head Radiologist gets on the phone.

More Questions.

Finally I ask whether I am out of line in thinking that this test is way too risky too perform?

She says if they do it there is a chance of Peritineal Perforation and Hemorraging..

I say " Sounds like Fun!! "

*Silence*

They never get my jokes...sigh..

So now the only exam affordable enough for my no insurance having ass is too dangerous to perform..

I'm really glad I have learned enough through my 16 years of Guinea Pigdom to question EVERYTHING.

Finding all of this out Friday morning DURING the Procedure,would not be the happy ending I'm looking for these days.

Fucking Sigh..

And who's bright Motherfucking idea was it to schedule something that would make me bleed MORE?

I couldn't even leave the house today to go 5 blocks to pick up my son the pain was so crippling. Manimal was home sick and was nice enough to push his Ookiness aside and go get him for me. It still makes me feel like a pathetic piece of Crap sometimes..

My tummy is so swollen someone mentioned Twins..

Woohoo..

I've got no reproductive organs left but I can still manage to be swollen enough to LOOK pregnant..

Gee what a bonus..What do I win next?

A Frontal Lobotomy would be Nifty..

Fuck a Great Big Motherfucking Bunch of This!!

To top it all off I am exhausted beyond reason from fighting the Pain all day, but the Pain is also too intense to allow me merciful unconciousness..

It's going to be a long friggin night.

/ End Rant.

JuliaGaltic · 01-10-2006, 11:55 PM

I'm so sorry you have to go through all of this. I wish you didn't live across the country from me. I'm not doing anything with my days for a while, I could at least come over and help you with the mindless every day crap, like cooking and cleaning for example... I hope you have some friends or family closer by to help with the daily load. I'm sure Manimal does all he can.

My thoughts are with you doll.

Sanctus Dei · 01-11-2006, 12:22 AM

Oh E.P.S... that's horrible, I'm with Julia, If only I lived near I'd be over in a second to help you.

edible_eye · 01-11-2006, 01:29 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Empty_Purple_Stars

Fuck a Great Big Motherfucking Bunch of This!!

To top it all off I am exhausted beyond reason from fighting the Pain all day, but the Pain is also too intense to allow me merciful unconciousness.

http://www.polarbearworld.com/images...armentfull.jpg

i'm sorry for your pain, beautiful.

pitseleh · 01-11-2006, 03:39 AM

It hurts to hear you are sick, EPS... By whichever deities (you included) there might be floating among us, I hope you will get better soon.

If you found a way to smuggle me over the Atlantic in a box, you could buy me as your slave for like 5 $. I'm a pretty good cook, and all I require is a tiny earthen hovel to sleep in and maybe some pot once in a while.

urian · 01-11-2006, 06:45 AM

I fucking hate people that slow down to watch car accidents. When my two brothers were in their accident and Danny lay in his car with a crushed skull , bleeding to death and Sean was slumped over dead, all anyone (including the VFD) could do was stand around and watch as my parents turned into heaps of tears and sorrow and I tried to fight back my anger and help. Fuckers. It's death, it's not a side show.

And no, Tstone, I am not attacking you but, YES, you did hit a nerve with that statement. You can feel proud you hit one of the only exposed nerves I have.
MY youngest brother died and the other one suffered while sick , twisted, perverted apathetic people set around and watched like it was some kind of matinee.

Fucking thanks for dredging up those memories for me.

Panther · 01-11-2006, 10:00 AM

*hugs E_P_S* I'm so sorry, honey. I hope they figure out what's wrong, without making you go through some scary test that might make it worse.

*hugs again*

And Urian, I'm sorry that this happened to your family. *hugs as well* There's not much I can say to possibly help, so I'll refrain.