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Originally Posted by Kireo-Umoshiae
I'm a procrastinator.
I think a lot, but I never I act on anything. I'm always too afraid.
I think I rock. I'm very proud of who I've become, because I'm so used to seeing so many ignorant people and thinking, "I'm glad I'm not like that anymore". But at the same time. I hate myself. I'm a self-loathing, self-pitying, shy, idiot that can't stand up for herself, but has no problem standing up for other people. No matter how much someone says I'm beautiful or they love me, I'll never believe them. No matter how great my life may be. I'll never be happy. I'm just used to it.
I don't believe in depression. I'm just not very good at coping with life. To me, saying you have depression is just denying the fact that you need get over yourself and everyone else. You just need to realize that this is life. Go home, take a nap, make a hobby, refuel, and get back out there.
My biggest problem is the fact that I can't trust people, and I can't get close to people. It's always too hard. I'm afraid it will either be akward or I'll get too attached and lose them one day thanks to my own idiocy.
A caveat: I'm difficult. Do not subject yourself to me. For I will undoubtedly forsake you.
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OhMyGoth. That only screams one thing: my name!
Bizzarely identical. Now I'm beginning to think that maybe I have multiple personalities and you may be one of them.
I feel more comfortable when I'm on my own, which leads me to think that maybe I'm solitary, and there's a weird thing that when I hang out with people after a while I'll disconnect, like, completely blank. I stop talking, can't think, and feel I'm supposed to be thinking about something but I don't know what that is.
The thing is, people here (I mean here nearby me) thinks that being solitary is wrong. They say I'm just too quiet, while the truth is I just can't be bothered to talk to people. They keep pushing me to meet people and have small talks, confide in people, talk about my feelings, yadda yadda yadda and I'm getting tired of that, because that's not what I want. And yes, I'm unbelievably self-centered.
Also I think I have a special relationship with sloth. We're like book ends.