Killing You Softly...

[mindless1]

I wish I could kill you
softly, slowly
People say she's a torn out stitch
I mean what a b1tch

You comfort me
with alcoholic soliloquies
I'm burning at the wick
I didn't suck your dick
when you asked, I knelt
over you

I said, do you really want me to?

Now you're having gay issues
Well that's not my fault
You wanted it, here's the result
Your actions are a constant assault

How many assholes will you ****
before you realize your loss
You broke my heart, you tossed
the tables across the stage

Your audience was applauding
Your innocent rage
As you broke every piece of me
Until my heart turned black
And now you can't have it back

Look at your reflection
In the mirror
I am not the one you fear
It's pretty clear.

Backhanded remarks
Those nails have left marks
Across my skin
Where do I begin?
They say I have a clean slate
It's not too late

They say he is my soulmate
But are you really that strong
Are you really that far gone?
The only thing I fear
Is also what you hate
The only thing I fear
Is the endless empty slate

You want to kill me
I dare you!
You want to thrill me
Why did you?
I hate you, that's the clue
You've turned into a submarine
I am the nuclear bomb
You have aimed at nothing

Have a nice life
Forget this knife I left
For you to find
Someday we'll all die
No reason to speed up the process
There's no reason to be so cruel
I am just as gay, I confess.

[Alan]

[BourbonBoy]

[mindless1]

I hate bullies. I saw the ex friend of mine at a house party upstairs; apparently he's dating my ex boyfriend now and rubbing it in my face. Saying it's sort of awful and laughing about how he "sorta stole my boyfriend" but my ex was a cunt anyways. He sucks this guy's cck all day, good for him like I give a fk. Not only did i not know I was enabling an alcoholic freak but the abuse I endured from him creating my dependency caused me some serious issues to work through. He practically shoved the alcohol down my throat and then the whole network of friends I had created to turn against me with his "charm" and then they did just that: kept harassing me and then saying stop pitying yourself when I wasn't.

I was trying to tell them not to text me and screw off. I can't report them because then I would have to mention the drug use and that would make me a snitch. But I can't stand these asshole pricks. It's like the racism I endured from black kids and now the hate and jealousy from this guy whose obviously flamboyantly gay but I never called him whatever but he tried to accuse me of this multiple times, and he said I was lucky he didn't have a gunn one night and attacked me multiple times, and hit me in the face.

And then he had the nerve to apologize. It's like he seems smart in some ways but really dumb in others. All his intellect goes into manipulating others for his own gain. He gets a thrill out of hurting people, and a self-acclaimed sadist. But this just went too far. I have to keep secrets for that SOB when with one word I could ruin his reputation and life.