Rant Thread II - Page 231

carakitty · 05-09-2011, 03:05 PM

i have come to the conclusion that it is better if I do not have alcohol in this house, or i will binge drink it all down.

Bought a bottle of Jager last week to have a couple of my friends over last Friday 'cause it was his birthday + he'd never tried it. Hello! I had to show him how good this stuff is! We had a couple shots each that night and I polished off the rest of it last night.

I also got a bottle of rum for Strawberry Daquaris and Pina Coladas. Used half the bottle for Daquaris which were drank that Friday night and the following afternoon.

Now there's half a bottle of rum and I'm thinking it would taste really good with this banana-tropical fruit smoothie I made. I'm also thinking that after my girl finishes this episode of Phineas and Ferb, and we go get some milk, after we get back home I'll start slowly sipping the rum mixed with something non caffeinated. Hopefully I can kill two birds with one stone: get the evil booze out of my house, and finish drinking early enough that I don't crash so hard and so late at night that I sleep in far too late and make my daughter an hour late for school like i did this morning.

CarrionCorpse · 05-09-2011, 08:14 PM

Today I visited someone I went to school with.
His grave is in Champlin, right next to where my best friend's dad is buried.
He was in a car crash with his girlfriend about 6 months ago. She lived.
I missed his wake and I regret it all the time.
I just started crying, I didn't know him well, but I went to school with him for 13 years.
I saw him everyday, we talked a few times...

It's just not fair.

CarrionCorpse · 05-09-2011, 09:13 PM

I just realized it's been far more than six months since his death.
I don't even try to think of when he died.
I don't place a time on it.
I just think about him being gone.
Oh my god.
WHY didn't I go to see him?

Fruitbat · 05-10-2011, 04:32 AM

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Originally Posted by CarrionCorpse

I just realized it's been far more than six months since his death.
I don't even try to think of when he died.
I don't place a time on it.
I just think about him being gone.
Oh my god.
WHY didn't I go to see him?

*hugs*

Let it go. Don't beat yourself up about this, because you'll drive yourself insane.

Take a drink to his grave and just say what you need to say to him - yeah I know it's a grave but it's really just so you feel better about it. Get it out of your system. It sounds crazy but it does help.

Celebrate life - remember his birthday not his funeral. I used to get plastered on my dad's birthday and eat my mum's favourite dessert on her birthday.

Celebrate his life and don't dwell on his death.

Underwater Ophelia · 05-10-2011, 06:14 AM

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Originally Posted by CarrionCorpse

I just realized it's been far more than six months since his death.
I don't even try to think of when he died.
I don't place a time on it.
I just think about him being gone.
Oh my god.
WHY didn't I go to see him?

Ok, let me stop you right there.
You didn't go see him because DINGDINGDING you didn't care. And you didn't care because, as you said, YOU DIDN'T EVEN REALLY KNOW HIM.

Now you're bored and need a reason to get upset. That's offensive.

PorlNecklace · 05-10-2011, 07:37 AM

Robert Smith on an ice cream stand, are college issues coming difficultly today.;/ Spent an hour tracking down one absentee professors contact info, the day before my 15 page portfolio was due; and then right afterwards discovered that my DSS request had been denied after being assured otherwise. Just hope I don't have to spend another day running between offices and filling out beurocratic papers with finals all about. Wish I didn't have to do a presentation today on top of that too..

CarrionCorpse · 05-10-2011, 08:54 AM

I don't know if I can go back there, not soon anyway...
Seeing his grave made me realize that it can happen to anyone.
And really put the idea of people that I know dying into perspective.
I'm terrified.
Out of the 14 people who died in my mum's graduating class, she knew 12 of them (about half were very close friends), what does that mean for me??
I know I should'nt dwell on it, but it's been something that's passed my mind nce or twice lately, and now it's all I can think about since seeing him.
I'm standing over his plot, crying, thinking 'oh my god, he's underneath me in a box, fucking rotting. No one is ever going to actually see him again' and having a panic attack because I missed his wake and I'LL never see him again.
It just really fucked me up..

I did know him.
And I cared alot, I just thought it would be rude to show up with all of his close friends and family wondering who the hell I was.
You're a really mean person Ophelia..

Solumina · 05-10-2011, 06:41 PM

She isn’t mean so much as deeply unhappy and likes to take it out on others, don't let her get to you.

Grieving can be really strange, especially when you are grieving for someone that you knew well but weren’t super close with. Frequently it doesn’t make sense for you do be as upset as you are and you feel like you can’t commiserate with others who knew him so you bottle things up and you repress. It isn’t a conscious decision, it is just something that people do, and at some point it just all comes out. Let yourself have a good cry and acknowledge that you are grieving and that it is okay for you to be experiencing all of the emotions that you are feeling.

Fruitbat · 05-10-2011, 07:47 PM

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Originally Posted by Solumina

She isn’t mean so much as deeply unhappy and likes to take it out on others, don't let her get to you.

Grieving can be really strange, especially when you are grieving for someone that you knew well but weren’t super close with. Frequently it doesn’t make sense for you do be as upset as you are and you feel like you can’t commiserate with others who knew him so you bottle things up and you repress. It isn’t a conscious decision, it is just something that people do, and at some point it just all comes out. Let yourself have a good cry and acknowledge that you are grieving and that it is okay for you to be experiencing all of the emotions that you are feeling.

^this... and then when you are ready to move on and try and focus on the good things, the good memories.

And remember that you've been given a kick in the pants to go out and live a fabulous life.

Carrion all those deaths from your mom's graduating class is a reminder to live a good life? Life is short and fleeting and there is no use being unhappy or spending time in a situation that makes you unhappy because before you know it, life is over. Shit it only feels like yesterday I was a cocky 18 year old makign the worst decision of my life - and that was a couple of decades ago now.

I came to rant about how I friggin' hate winter. Fuck this place, fuck winter... man I really hate being cold. Really, Really REALLY hate it. I'm migrating north for the winter!

Underwater Ophelia · 05-11-2011, 06:18 AM

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Originally Posted by Solumina

She isn’t mean so much as deeply unhappy and likes to take it out on others, don't let her get to you.
.

Jesus Christ! IS EVERYONE TAKING CRAZY PILLS!?

She fucking said herself that she didn't know him!
I'm not mean, I'm just realistic and fucking LOGICAL.

Underwater Ophelia · 05-11-2011, 06:19 AM

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Originally Posted by CarrionCorpse

I did know him.
And I cared alot, I just thought it would be rude to show up with all of his close friends and family wondering who the hell I was.
You're a really mean person Ophelia..

And why would his family and close friends wonder who you were, despite the fact that you go to the same school?

BECAUSE YOU BARELY KNEW THE KID!

Still Jack · 05-11-2011, 06:59 AM

She has got a very fair point.

Underwater Ophelia · 05-11-2011, 07:04 AM

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Originally Posted by Still Jack

She has got a very fair point.

At least someone still has a brain in his head.

Mr.Doobie · 05-11-2011, 07:08 AM

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Originally Posted by Underwater Ophelia

And why would his family and close friends wonder who you were, despite the fact that you go to the same school?

BECAUSE YOU BARELY KNEW THE KID!

So does being a complete and utter ass to someone who's obviously hurting make you feel edgy and cool or what?

Still Jack · 05-11-2011, 07:16 AM

What I don't get is that she's putting the realization of her own mortality down to some random bloke dying that she talked to once or twice. Well, to be honest, get over it.
23 of my friends have died, If I can get over it, so can you.

PorlNecklace · 05-11-2011, 09:10 AM

Past two days of college beurocratic work, going exactly as expected.
Spent an hour to talk for five minutes at point A, before being directed to point B, where I waited 45 minutes to talk for two before being set on point C, which immediately sent me to D, although I couldn't go there until 10AM the following day. Where I was immediately sent back to B, although I'm at A waiting an hour for my preiliminary work to be finalized for B, which I'll then take back to A then give to C, so that it can be heard next weeks meeting at location E.

Pineapple_Juice · 05-11-2011, 05:26 PM

I don't know guys. When I was in volleyball in high school a girl on the varsity team named Karina Ledesma offered me a Starburst once out of the blue, and two days later she had a brain aneurism and ended up dying. All the volleyball teams were invited to her funeral-we got the day off school. She was also in the same off-school v-ball league I was in and we got new uniforms with her number on the sleeve. I only met her once but I bawled at her service and I still sometimes think about her, and contemplate my own mortality in the process. That was 8 years ago.

CarrionCorpse · 05-11-2011, 06:01 PM

Just drop it guys, sorry I said anything...

PorlNecklace · 05-11-2011, 07:59 PM

I can quite literally bring myself to tears thinking about people who must have existed thousands of years ago and are now completely forgotten. Roman soldiers in particular

So even if I don't know someone at all, its no difficulty for me to suddenly become reverentially religious; in appreciating the rarity of life.

Pineapple_Juice · 05-11-2011, 09:38 PM

another kid just ate shit down the stairs again. when his parents came around the corner they just grabbed him by his wrist and dragged him down the hallway. I don't even like kids and that's fucked up.

erotomaniac87 · 05-11-2011, 10:16 PM

Fuck! Half of my day today was spent at the ER because my neighbor's dog decided to feast on my left butt-cheek, and my right lower thigh; awesome! I was not the initial target, though, but my three-year-old Tibetan Terrier, which I was trying to protect while the attack was taking effect. My sister was bitten on the hand when she went to our aid, and my dog was wounded, though not severely, and had to be rushed to the vet.

Timeless Rebellion · 05-16-2011, 01:52 PM

Someone gave me head lice once again -.- What a fabulous way to celebrate my new hair cut!! -.-""""""

honeythorn · 05-16-2011, 02:44 PM

well...they do prefer clean hair so at least it doesn't mean you're dirty!

HumanePain · 05-16-2011, 03:19 PM

I wonder if the admins have observed a decline in site visits inversely proportional to the increase of flash ads.

korinna5555 · 05-16-2011, 09:47 PM

One of my friends died on April 21, pneumonia (he was HIV+).
Last week, I had two friends die (non-related incidents) within 24 hours. One ODed on Tuesday night, one shot himself Wednesday morning.
Three friends in less than a month.. fucking sucks.