Well old Newb

[Elder]

Spent so many years now, trying to conform in various ways.
Get steady job, get a degree, get a mortgage, get a steady relationship.
All done, but I've never been so miserable, and never has the black portion of my wardbrobe been so small.

Quiting smoking and putting on weight hasn't helped.
So, I'm toying with coming back.

Been 17 years since I last considered myself goth (even part time).
Since then I've had long hair, short hair, goatee, clean shaved.
I was happiest when it spikey, black and wild.

A lot of "trendies" might be suprised to be find beig goth makes someone happy.
But, I'm Elder, I'm goth and I'm feeling happier just for saying that.

I really have the urge to by 3 or 4 Tesco £30 black suits, just to darken things up a bit. At least as a temporary measure.

[Elder]

Oh, forgot the questions.
Sorry guys.

1. What do you do? (Hobbies, job)
Play with cars, do pub quizes, crawl arround 'tinterweb, pretend to be a computer programmer at work.
2. Where are you from?
Cheshire UK
3. Who is your favorite author?
Terry Pratchett
4. What are your favorite films?
The Italian Job (original) Dr Caligari, The Omen (the old Greg Peck one)
5. What music do you want played at your wedding?
don't believe in Marriage, seen too many mates fucked up.
6. At your funeral?
My Way.
7. This IS a gothic website, so... how do you want to die?
I don't plan to. Some of us will be undead forever.
8. What kind of casket would you want?
What burns best? In the unfortunate event that I'm not immortal, I plan to cast my ash to the wind and return to nature.
9. What's your FAVORITE outfit?
I miss my old floor length wnter weight cape.
10. What's one thing you miss about being a little kid?
When penny chews actually cost 1p
11. What's your favorite band?
The Cure
12. What kind of education do you have? What is/was/will be your major?
Batchelor degree inenglish literature.
13. Why did you join?
Coming back to the fold.
14. If the first 13 questions didn't give it away. What is your gender?
Male.

[Queenofdarkness57]

Welcome
I'm really looking forward for your contributions to this site.
Stick around...

[succubus,queenofvampires]

Welcome, Elder. You seem interesting!

[Elder]

Mad as a box of Frogs really as it happens.
Been a manic depressive since I was about 13 (usually school bullying or money related. Only once needed medication and that was late last year after I quit smoking, didn't like it. Fucked my head up worse than it normally is). Was a goth from about 15 - 20-21 ish.
never really liked mainstream anything. Even during some of my more upbeat periods, the only dancy stuff I like was usually off the wall stuff (prodigy/chemicals/Aphex twin) before it became popular.

Spent a lot of time hanging with bikers and the like, and when I was a kid we had a punk lodger so that influenced my music a lot, beetles/trogs/kinks from my dad, Damned/Ramones/Stranglers/Wendy O/Plasmatics/Early Motorhead from the lodger.

Musically, lately I've found myself drawn back to old music goth and goth rock, punk, lots of old Ska stuff. I guess something just clicked in the last year and instead of just moving with the crowd like I have done for the last 15 years, I standing the stream and making ripples again. And it feels good.

[spookypurple]

Oh, stuff conforming! Way too much effort. Oh. That sounded dumb. Hi there, Elder. And welcome!

[Elder]

Oh I know it is brain chemical based.
But there needs to be a trigger to start the swing. It can take a huge effort to start a climb back, but the slightest disappointment to pull the rug out.

But anyway, I think I've opened up enough in my introduction don't you think

[Elder]

No worries. been ding this website stuff for donkies.
I work in IT building them as it happens. Have been since late 1997 when I left university as a mature student.

Had planned to go into journalism. Don't know what happened, but suddenly I discovered building web sites.

Web dev is so last century now. Wonder if it is too late to get back to writing? I have an idea for a novel in my head. Sort of Parallel earth, early 21st century type underground societies/politics/oppression type thing.

[Legion]

Hey Elder:
I get what you mean about being goth making you happy. Why should I be depressed, I belong here. I'm having a blast - it's like halloween all the time!
I sometimes wonder about some of the angst-ridden kindergoth. I find myself agreeing with their parents - maybe wearing all this black is despressing them. Perhaps they should try a different subculture.

[Elder]

Exactley. As it happens. My birthday is 25th December.
OK, I'm a bit of an Atheist, so to me it is just my birthday.
To everyone else it seems to be either a big religious thing, or a big commercial thing.
So I always used to enjoy Halloween parties at clubs. I really always used to put so much effort into costumes and makeup. Even when I wasn't obviously goth in my appearance and more a generic Rocker. One year I did a full freddy kruger using pink and green and white toilet tissue and PVA glue. The trick was to first hide your eye brows, and then remodel the nose. After that it becomes easy to simulate the horrific burn scars, at least under bad nightclub lights. I freaked a lot of people that night, especially once I had made a blade glove, and found a fedora. I just seemed to fall into a persona. And because the tissue was soft and the glue dried rubbery, it actually moved like reall burnt skin.

Since then I've done demons, vampires, Zombies, even the grim fella himself. And whenever I've done it, I've always won something when the best costume prizes were given out. Samhain has always been my favourite festival.

I think some goths do it to be fashionable and don't get it fully, but realise after a while there is more than black clothes and music. Others like me are drawn to it. I was listening to the Cult and Souixsie and the Cure from about 14, and dressing in black, then discovered old Bauhaus and the older New Model Army and Killing joke stuff. Wasn't until I was about 16 that someone shouted "oi Gothic" across the road. Didn't know what it was. I seemed to be just me.

Later when I got to college, I discovered other goths and I was home.
Bit dark disney I know, but that is my early life in a nutshell.

[Sanctus Dei]

(How did I miss you??) Hi Elder!! Welcome to the G!!

[Emerald]

Hello Elder, Welcome to the site

[spookypurple]

"A bit dark disney" I love it! What a fabulous phrase...

[Elder]

Always had a good turn of phrase me. just coined it.

Will have to remember it. Damn, you are right, it is a good one.
I give you all the right to use it were ever possible. I'm sure somewhere in History Google will immortalise it as being first used by me here, in 2006

[Crom Crauch]

spiffy and welcome

[spookypurple]

Originally Posted by Elder

Always had a good turn of phrase me. just coined it.

Will have to remember it. Damn, you are right, it is a good one.
I give you all the right to use it were ever possible. I'm sure somewhere in History Google will immortalise it as being first used by me here, in 2006

May I have your permission to spread its use virulently throughout the South of England, thereby ensuring it a foothold in everyday parlance?

Huh? Huh? Can I? Can I? Pleeeeeeease!

[Elder]

You may. Please do. I want to be famous for something. And a catch phrase is good as anything.

[six_inch_heels]

Terry Pratchett is amazing. So much fun
Welcome Elder.