Sometimes its hard

[Unimatrix 00]

I'm pretty sure the thought has crossed everybodies minds at some point though, am I right? Like, what would happen if I were to kill myself. Just curiosity but also a little bit of depression.

Its not an ongoing thing, I honestly do not think I am suicidal. Because I know their is so much to live for. My graduation, my marriage in 2 years, college etc.

[Solumina]

The though of one's own death is pretty normal, even the occasional though of killing yourself is actually pretty normal, it just becomes an issue if those thoughts become something that you are planning on doing instead of just macabre musings.

[Unimatrix 00]

I wouldnt say I was planning on doing it, more thinking about what would happen if I were and weighing up the pros and the cons.

I will talk to my psych, just be really honest. I don't want this feeling on depression to escelate.

How are you Solumina? I haven't talked to you in ages. x

[Solumina]

I'm doing alright, I've hit a bit of a rough patch and am withdrawing from this semester mainly because I need to figure out my meds before I can really be able to get through the pressure of exam week and times where I have loads of papers. In the mean time I'm getting a steady job which I'm sure will come with its own set of pressures but I think I will be better able to cope with them.

[Unimatrix 00]

yeah I know what you mean love. Being on meds is hard. I'm on depakote and I'm finding school a challenge, but I just want to finish. I'm graduating this year.

I hope everything works out well for you baby. You're such a sweet person. x

[Solumina]

Aww thanks. I'm pretty sure that I could continue school if I wanted but right now I just don't think that it is the best thing for me, there is no reason for me to be paying (or more accurately using up my mother's money) to go to university when I'm not really getting much out of it. Right now there are a few pretty decent job opportunities in the area and I just want to snag one of them, that way I'll be able to save up enough to pay my own way through school later. I'm actually quite happy about the decision, I think I just feel a lot easier being completely responsible for myself instead of taking advantage of my mother's money.

[the-nihilist]

At least you didn't walk into a trailer and hit your knee.

[RozzVanian]

Originally Posted by the-nihilist

At least you didn't walk into a trailer and hit your knee.

What were you doing walking into a trailer anyway?!
It's not that bad. Emotional pain lasts longer than physical pain, and is harder to deal with in the long run.

[the-nihilist]

But it hurts

[RozzVanian]

Originally Posted by the-nihilist

But it hurts

I hope you're being funny.

[Xenophile]

I'm with you on that one nihilist. I broke my toe once and it hurt like hell.

[RozzVanian]

I've just about mutilated my middle finger. I've had it jammed, caught in a door twice, and had stuff fall on it. It looks fine, but at one point they had to remove my finger nail to let the blood out when I had a particularly nasty accident.

I've had back luck with that finger...

[ZyklonB]

Stop flipping people off and you'll be fine.

[Metabolik]

Your still here?

Every time I go from this place I expect something to change upon my return >.>

[Necromance]

I'm new here and I don't really know you, but from your posts that I've read, here's my advice. If you want to make more friends, have people support you, not get flamed on every thread you start, then you need to learn to put a filter between your brain and your mouth. You can't just say however you're feeling. If someone gives you critisism, you can't just tell them to "fuck off".

No one is going to apperciate that and no one is going to want to help you or be your friend if you bite people's heads off all the time.

[Metabolik]

That's the smartest thing I've ever heard...

[Porcelain]

Agreed.

Uni, I'm new here too, but from what I've read, you're a friggin bitch.

Stop telling people to fuck off. Then they will be your friends, and you will have a reason to wake up in the morning.

[voodoowitchdr]

Originally Posted by Porcelain

Agreed.

Uni, I'm new here too, but from what I've read, you're a friggin bitch.

Stop telling people to fuck off. Then they will be your friends, and you will have a reason to wake up in the morning.

I'm new also, and I won't pay attention to your old stuff, just how you interact with me and others from now on.

Now back to your mental state, there is a plant called Salvia Divinorum that is used for spiritual and mental healing by a tribe in Oaxaca Mexico. I'm here to tell you that in your current state, it would be a very bad idea to try it (it is widely available in the U.S. now). Just a warning. Good Luck.

[the-nihilist]

I don't bother telling people I'm new, I just start posting replies.

[voodoowitchdr]

Originally Posted by the-nihilist

I don't bother telling people I'm new, I just start posting replies.

I nocticed. You just came outta no where man! Your like a freakin' ninja man! Your so stealthy I don't even know who I'm talkin' to! Hello?

[RozzVanian]

Wow, I was under the impression you'd been here a while, Doc. You seem like you've really found your place in this...place.

I didn't even bother reading your post count or join date. You just seem like a veteren. You too, Nihilist.

[Duane]

They very well might be.

[RozzVanian]

Originally Posted by Duane

They very well might be.

Maybe they just want us to think they're new...maybe they existed under a pseudonym previously, and re-joined under a new alias!

A-ha! I have you two down pat, Nihilist and Voodoowitchdr! I've got my one eye on you!

[Duane]

Maybe they just want you to think that, maybe I just want you to think that... maybe maybe maybe.

[voodoowitchdr]

Originally Posted by RozzVanian

Maybe they just want us to think they're new...maybe they existed under a pseudonym previously, and re-joined under a new alias!

A-ha! I have you two down pat, Nihilist and Voodoowitchdr! I've got my one eye on you!

Wrong, I'm new, I don't know about Mr. Knee Banger.