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04-14-2007, 11:43 AM
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Really helped ga dere 
Thanks.
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04-14-2007, 11:46 AM
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Always trying to help people, thats me. So much so that they abuse my trust, piss all over me, use me and throw me away.
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04-14-2007, 11:48 AM
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I hear you. I definetly here you. g
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04-14-2007, 11:51 AM
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I'm a bitter cup, full of resentment right now. gg.
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04-14-2007, 12:01 PM
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I understand. ggg.
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04-14-2007, 12:09 PM
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I am trying not to do anything stupid right now. I am going to get back at her instead of giving her a verbal lashing. gggg
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04-14-2007, 04:44 PM
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I appreciate that. ggggg.
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04-15-2007, 09:01 AM
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prose
I weep in darkness,
As the memory of her fades into the dusk-
Far from me not,
For I am, without spoken hesitation-
In the dusk
The pain never leaving, her image always in my heart
I crave my lonesomeness
Yet with the memory of her,
Feel I nothing, nothing of her nor the world I behold.
I am alone,
As I disembowel my organs and limbs
The scent of my defeat, enters my body
Torturing it delicately
Over and over, mentally, physically-
Silence cold as death
Cold like my memory of her
I am still alone
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04-15-2007, 09:25 AM
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04-15-2007, 10:26 AM
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Join Date: Apr 2007
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Originally Posted by Mir
Always trying to help people, thats me. So much so that they abuse my trust, piss all over me, use me and throw me away.
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Been there, done that.
Still happens to me.
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04-15-2007, 05:15 PM
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Originally Posted by Vyvian Blackthorne
I think you and me have the most in common, Kontan. Well, since I've nothing to do tonight, I'll look for one around-or ask around because it's beyond me. Oh, and by the way, I always love how you go to clubs "themed"-it's cliche perhaps, but cool.
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I'm themed?? 0_o
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04-15-2007, 05:18 PM
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The "Post-Apocolyptic" look you told me about. I considered it "themed"-not proclaiming you that.
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04-15-2007, 05:18 PM
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I weep in darkness,
As the memory of her fades into the dusk-
Far from me not,
For I am, without spoken hesitation-
In the dusk
The pain never leaving, her image always in my heart
I crave my lonesomeness
Yet with the memory of her,
Feel I nothing, nothing of her nor the world I behold.
I am alone,
As I disembowel my organs and limbs
The scent of my defeat, enters my body
Torturing it delicately
Over and over, mentally, physically-
Silence cold as death
Cold like my memory of her
I am still alone
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"I think in some way I wanted it to end, even if it meant my own destruction."
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04-15-2007, 06:24 PM
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I've defiantly been in your situation. In fact I almost killed myself a couple years ago. I lost my job, dropped out of college, moved back in with my parents and had no lover or friends to help me through my pain. I was at the lowest point in my life.
I had spent most of my days sleeping, eating, watching TV. Any way I could dodge the pain and the big void in my heart I would do. At this time I was desperate contacting anybody on line to give even so much as a scrap of love…I didn’t even get that. My Mom at that time was on muscle relaxers and one night I hurt my leg and she gave me one to feel better. My body was so relaxed and peaceful that I thought if I ever had to kill myself that would be the best way I’d go. Near the end of October 2003 I was at the end of my rope. Getting up in the morning became a humongous ordeal. So on the night of October 30, 2003 I had grabbed the bottle of muscle relaxers, put on some sad music and wept bitterly. I was sick of the position I was in. I didn’t want any part of it any more. As I was sitting in front of the monitor I noticed I had received an e-mail. A guy had responded back to an e-mail I sent. I saw him in some gay longhaired personals. As I saw the e-mail in my inbox I became even more fearful. What if he rejects me? That would be the final nail in my coffin. With all the courage I mustered I viewed the message. He was interested in me. We sent e-mails back and forth for a week before we first met. When we did meet that first night most of my dark clouds dissipated.
Long story short we became lovers. Even though we were together for only six months he taught me so much regarding life. That life isn’t as dark as it seems. That if you hold on long enough life gets better.
The advice that I want to give you is cry. Cry a lot. I’ve learned that tears are very cathartic and necessary for healing. I used to hold in my tears all time figuring that strong people don’t cry. I was very wrong.
Most importantly hold on to hope. On the night of October 30, 2003 I had the full intention of taking my life. Some force knew I had a greater purpose and stopped me. I’m sure destiny has something great in store for you too.
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04-15-2007, 06:58 PM
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You're right and I agree. Also, crying does help. And I'm happy that you saw the brighter side of things. Here's to fate and destiny. *raises his glass*
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04-16-2007, 07:05 AM
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God, and what the fuck were going to do, Bloopie? Insult my subculture and riddicule me AGAIN insensitively? At least I don't have to endure the shit your put me through. You asshole. I'm really serious what I say, and just because you have a disorder means not for you to take it out on us! I showed my sympathy for you.
GOTH4EVER
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04-16-2007, 07:10 AM
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Vyvy, haven't we chatted about how Goth isn't a religion? Seriously, kiddo, lighten the fuck up.
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A SPIDER sewed at night
Without a light
Upon an arc of white.
If ruff it was of dame
Or shroud of gnome,
Himself, himself inform.
Of immortality
His strategy
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04-16-2007, 07:12 AM
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Guys....
Real RELIGION has failed me.
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04-16-2007, 07:15 AM
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Goth is apart of my soul, thank you very much. How has religion failed me? I wish I could get into that, but I'd rather not relieve that expirence I just got into a fight with my beloved mother.
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04-16-2007, 07:23 AM
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Originally Posted by Vyvian Blackthorne
Goth is apart of my soul, thank you very much. How has religion failed me? I wish I could get into that, but I'd rather not relieve that expirence I just got into a fight with my beloved mother.
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Darling, I couldn't possibly give a shit how religion has failed you. The point is, Goth (however speshul it is to you) is NOT a religion. So please stop preaching, you goddamn charlatan.
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A SPIDER sewed at night
Without a light
Upon an arc of white.
If ruff it was of dame
Or shroud of gnome,
Himself, himself inform.
Of immortality
His strategy
Was physiognomy.
--Emily Dickinson
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04-16-2007, 07:32 AM
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God....Woah...okay...
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04-16-2007, 07:33 AM
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I guess I should leave, eh? I'm not be oppressed for being goth, that's a good thing. But this IS the WHINING board, I don't consider my acts 'preaching' by the way. This is a bit to hard to bear. Sorry.
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04-16-2007, 07:39 AM
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The advice that I want to give you is cry. Cry a lot. I’ve learned that tears are very cathartic and necessary for healing.
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What do you do if you've forgotten how?
Drake
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04-16-2007, 07:39 AM
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Originally Posted by Vyvian Blackthorne
I guess I should leave, eh? I'm not be oppressed for being goth, that's a good thing. But this IS the WHINING board, I don't consider my acts 'preaching' by the way. This is a bit to hard to bear. Sorry.
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Bye-bye, Vyvy.
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A SPIDER sewed at night
Without a light
Upon an arc of white.
If ruff it was of dame
Or shroud of gnome,
Himself, himself inform.
Of immortality
His strategy
Was physiognomy.
--Emily Dickinson
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04-16-2007, 07:47 AM
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God, I'm not leaving! Why'd I do that 
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