Stupid and pointless

I'm sick of feeling stupid, ugly, inconsequential, wrong and cast aside. Everything I do seems to backfire, everything I think I understand proves to be wrong, and it's my fault that it is. I do my best to share what's important but it's either rage and butthurt inducing or meh. I guess some days affection is directed elsewhere. That's ok, it's not like I need any of it. I didn't try to make things right, I just flail around hurting everybody in my path and fucking things up. And it's all the same; everyone is having fun, doing stuff that I'd like to be doing, while I decipher romantic poetry on Grecian urns and determine hardness and luster for various minerals for the fifth or sixth times, somehow completely missing two important facts. I'm glad I don't bother sitting half of most of my english classes, since apparently sitting them all the way through doesn't do any good as far as knowing wtf is going on.
I'm glad you love your wife, I'm glad this other band is doing a show and I get to look forward to two days of camping in a group by myself. I'm glad my wife is ignoring me online and spreading love to others.
I don't know if I should be home right now.
Oh wait, I have homework to do :D Don't want to forget about that!