I know I am still young. I'm only 27 yrs old. However I have wanted kids since I was 23. My first husband screwed my life over and traumatized me then left me. So I had to start all over with someone new.

Things are different. He's disabled, diabetic with a possibility of sterility. I love him so much that I am willing to live life without kids if we have no other options.

I just wish I could at least raise one child of my own. I doubt the government will let us adopt...

My husband couldn't make up his mind even if his life depended on it. He always has me make the decsions and puts me on the spot to pick everything we do.

Saying "i'll eat whatever" is very vague becuase I have to be careful what to pick. He's allergic to shellfish so most seafood places I can't go to, or cajun places that have shrimp might fry everything in the same grease.

Or when he can't decide what black shirt to wear..pick a damn shirt! That's why...

I've been having problems trying to determine what it is I am truly hearing or thinking sometimes. It mostly happens when stress hits me SO hard I start to hear a little voice telling me. "They lied to you" I don't have an intentions with this thought. I just dont' know why I am hearing it.

Maybe I still have a fear as I did when I was a child. I always feel alone, used, abused, and abandoned.

I don't even know what to think anymore.

I thought I would explain the "Hello Boys and Girls!" thing I start all of my blogs so far with.
It is really something I just started with this site.
In one of the stories I have written the character is older then most of the people around her. I have been writing this story for years. After a while I start to think I am older then I am and this is what happens.
Another idea is that I am one of those people that have "old souls". I always feel older...

Everyone Has The Perfect Person In Mind When It Comes To Love...Well Here Is Mine.

Romance:

From Sweet Kisses To Passionate "Can't Live Without You" Kisses. Sweet Caresses. A Guy Who I Don't Have To Ask For Affection From, Who Would Just Give, And Show It All The Time Naturally. A Guy Who Would Do Whatever It Takes To Keep The Fire Burning. Someone To Miss Me More Than Anything. A Guy Who Would Perhaps Write, Or Express His Feelings Not Only Verbally, But...