Lonely... - Page 3

orionedarnell · 04-07-2007, 12:21 AM

I am a Christian but I do not judge anyone for what they look like. I can make friends with anyone.

This message is for anyone who doesn't know Jesus as their Lord and Saviour.
Have you ever stolen anything no matter how big or small. What does that make

you? A thief right? yes. Have you ever told a lie? What does that make you? A liar

yes? yes. Have you ever had lustful thoughts toward anyone? Well Jesus said that if

you have lusted then you are an adulterer at heart and adultery is against the ten

commandments. It is number 7. Have you ever hated someone? Jesus said that if

you have ever hated anyone then you are a murderer at heart. Thou shalt not kill

(murder) is number 6.
So if God were to judge you by the ten commandments would you go to heaven or

hell. We would all go to hell if that were the case. No man has followed the ten

commandments. But you know what God did to save us from going to hell. He sent

His Son to die on the cross for us and suffer for all of our sins. Then He rose from

the dead to defeat death forever that we may live forever in Heaven and not suffer

eternal damnation.
If you deny this belief let me tell you that the Gospels were written within one

generation of the life of Christ and they were written by eyewitnesses or by people

who interviewed witnesses. This has been proven by historians.
I just want you to realize that I care for you and I want to see you in Heaven and

God Loved this world so much that He gave His only begotten Son that whosover

believes in Him shall not parish but have everlasting life. (John 3:16)
I ask you to please think about your eternity and this message and come to Jesus

and repent (turn away) from your sins.

Vyvian Blackthorne · 04-07-2007, 12:42 AM

...................this had nothing to do with the topic. Another in the ignore list.

04-07-2007, 01:20 AM

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Originally Posted by Vyvian Blackthorne

What didn't you like of that speech? I think Kontan's words are beautiful. I know, not everyone here is particulary gothic and I doubt you are in specific. But you do write from what I've seen through your other accounts (and not bad at all to be quite honest) and if I'm not mistaken, appreiciate gothic literature. I may be wrong, perhaps I'm having trouble deteriming what you're saying means.

just the patronization at the end...you know, your analogy. i thought it was a bit cruel to think that people are that stupid. people really aren't; people just don't care as much as you, or i might. no offense intended by any of this, of course.

Vyvian Blackthorne · 04-07-2007, 01:39 AM

Well people just don't understand. That lack of carelessness could lead to ignorance, not all the time, but regarding discrimination I'd have to say so...but I'm bad at arguments in advance.

04-07-2007, 01:51 AM

you know, we should kibitz via some sort of instant messaging program. this discussion could go on for a few unwanted pages.

Vyvian Blackthorne · 04-08-2007, 10:47 PM

I've lost someone I love dearfully...this was a while ago...I have no idea what happened to her. She was the only person like me, goth, and who understood me. I actually felt confortable around her. Looking for gothic friends or moral support (people in my town don't understand it) and that was when I found her...
I don't want to sound like I'm hacking for sympathy. I will continue this later. My bloody eyes are dried from weeping.

mrs.wes straker · 04-08-2007, 11:03 PM

..and one last hug for Vyvian before I go.

Vyvian Blackthorne · 04-08-2007, 11:15 PM

Thanks. I'm off as well, the sun is arising, into my coffin-tomb I go...

in closing words for my 900th post,
Upon a paper attached to the Narrative which follows, Doctor Hesselius has written a rather elaborate note, which he accompanies with a reference to his Essay on the strange subject which the MS illuminates.
This mysterious subject he treats, in that Essay, with his usual learning and acumen, and with remarkable directness and condensation. It will form but one volume of the series of that extraordinary man's collected papers.

As I publish the case, in these volumes, simply to interest the 'laity', I shall forestall the intelligent lady, who relates it, in nothing; and, after due consideration, I have determined, therefore, to abstain from presenting any precis* of the learned Doctor's reasoning, or extract from his statement on a subject which he describes as 'involving, not improbably, some of the [profoundest arcana of our dual existence, and its intermediates'.*

I was anxious, on discovering this paper, to re-open the correspondence commenced by Doctor Hesselius, so many years before, with a person so clever and careful as his informant seems to have been. Much to my regret, however, I found that she had died in the interval.

She, probably, could have added little to the Narrative which she communicates in the following pages, with, so far as I can pronounce, such a conscientious particularity.
-Carmilla

honeythorn · 04-09-2007, 10:17 AM

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...This part of Wales is unbelieveable and I hope to leave here soon.

Oh Vyvian..I was just in Wales ( Borth ) this weekend...Don't worry, you aren't alone. I don't know any other goths in real life either. I don't go to clubs ( there aren't here any anyway that I know of ) and although I love my friends to death ( I have known them since I was in primary school ) they are definitely not interested in gothic culture so I have to appreciate it alone too.

But. That is why I come on here, on here I am not alone, and neither are you!

Vyvian Blackthorne · 04-09-2007, 02:52 PM

Yeah...it's hellish here. Hard to describe it.

Vyvian Blackthorne · 04-09-2007, 04:53 PM

Hmmmm...

sigh

Cyntrox · 04-09-2007, 04:54 PM

Ey, I'm lonely too! Wanna be lonely together?

Vyvian Blackthorne · 04-09-2007, 04:56 PM

Oh that'd be great. But there's more than just that...I need a while to get my head straight before adding more details...and to realise the safety I have here. Still...

Cyntrox · 04-09-2007, 05:07 PM

Feel free to drop me an email anytime - use the address in my profile, only replace hotmail with **********

the-broken-harlequin · 04-09-2007, 05:07 PM

(slimy,trolly) E-hug! ^3^

Vyvian Blackthorne · 04-11-2007, 05:51 PM

I am still utterly depressed. Sorry, well at least I can rely on my fellow goths here on creepyspace to help me get by.

I once knew a girl who was beautiful. I loved her much, like a mentioned, she was the only one I knew who ever shared the same interests with me-the only other goth I knew. I loved her dearly, yet could barely see her for my parents restricted me because of reasons I wish not to say (abuse-related).
And then, one day, on my Birthday...she was gone...the pain has never healed.

Clockwork · 04-11-2007, 06:31 PM

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Originally Posted by Vyv

I've lost someone I love dearfully...this was a while ago...I have no idea what happened to her.

Just... gone? Disappeared? Vanished into thin air? I do hope no harm befell her. How unfortunate that something so wonderful should be so meaninglessly snatched away...

Maybe someday you'll find her again. You could make it a life goal. That's rather romantic, I think.

04-11-2007, 06:32 PM

Vyvian, why are you so depressed? I suffer from bi-polar type 1 (the worst form) and I am not this depressed.

Vyvian Blackthorne · 04-12-2007, 04:01 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Clockwork

Just... gone? Disappeared? Vanished into thin air? I do hope no harm befell her. How unfortunate that something so wonderful should be so meaninglessly snatched away...

Maybe someday you'll find her again. You could make it a life goal. That's rather romantic, I think.

I wish to speak not of it, I don't have the soul to relieve it.

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Originally posted by Bloopie

Vyvian, why are you so depressed? I suffer from bi-polar type 1 (the worst form) and I am not this depressed.

You're very strong Bloopie, the reason being IS because of what is describe by my Therapist as a mood disorder. And still suffer (vaguely) from strong clinical/suicidal depression-because of the events following my life including love loss and being abondaned.
I know nobody wants to here of it and its typical, but before full knowledge of goth and expression through dark art, I wanted to kill myself, so desperately...

Vyvian Blackthorne · 04-12-2007, 04:04 PM

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Originally Posted by Cyntrox

Feel free to drop me an email anytime - use the address in my profile, only replace hotmail with **********

I'll remember, for sure, ********** address XD

But seriously, thanks. I'll be sure to.

DarkGentleman · 04-12-2007, 11:54 PM

Vyvian my dear, I have been through alot of the same things you have, I was depressed mostly during my teenage years and my 20's. In my 30's now, let's just say that I have improved myself.

I'd be honored to be a friend here for you in Gnet.

Right now, I don't have much friends myself because most times I've made friends, I got used or been taken advantage of to the point that I just don't bother anymore. It's ok, I could use the space sometimes. However, I just keep looking till I find new friends that I can trust and respect. I do hate the loneliness too, it makes my heart ache and I sometimes just want to hide away from the world. Sometimes there are things that we hang on to that we must learn to let go.
I know that it feels good to have friends that you can talk to, hang out with, and enjoy being goths.
I understand the fact that we are judged by society in a negative way, only because the fact that of their ignorance. Their ignorance means one thing: They actually have no respect and hate themselves to the extent that they tear us down to make themselves feel better. Perhaps they think they are so perfect, HA!!! smells like .....hmmmm.....um...(sniff)....DENIAL! ack! Ignorant people just simply piss me off when they tear others down or bully us around.

We all have our problems that we can't face alone, which why I joined this group, I do feel good being here the same way you do. I feel more appreciated, accepted and hopefully respected here. I believe we can help each other one way or the other.
Sometimes I like to sit somewhere in the nature and think. Think about what I can do, how and why do I feel this way. Optimisim can be useful once learned.
A wise person once said: "My beloved child, break your heart no longer. Each time you judge yourself, you break your own heart.", that has me thinking that I have to stop judging myself on somethings that made me feel negative towards myself. I did hate myself, my mother and some other people for many reasons. Once I learned to accept and love myself for who and what I am, then NOBODY can take that away from me or tear me down anymore.

Anyways, I hope that a friendship within the Gnet between you,me and all of us will bring more positive ways of understanding things as they come.

Hugs to you Vyvian.

PersephoneX · 04-13-2007, 12:03 AM

*hugs to everyone*

I love you guys...I really do.

Mir · 04-13-2007, 05:29 AM

I used to love being lonely, now when I'm lonely I think of her. Fuck.

Vyvian Blackthorne · 04-13-2007, 02:09 PM

I feel some of your pain, Mir, contray our disagreements. I crave lonesomeness but with the loss of my own Mistress I cannot bear to stand it...I guess with the philosophy of loneliness I am drawn toward, but the manpulative loneliness is harsh to endure... (Gives Chocolate Ice cream)

Thank you very much, Dark Gentlman. I AM your friend. You too, X, crazy you...

KontanKarite · 04-13-2007, 10:36 PM

More than ever, Vyvian, I know your feelings on this. I'm afraid everything is going to become routine... Feeling alone, even in a gothic club is kinda depressing, lemme tell ya.