Rant Thread

[Morbideus]

My sympathies to all who can use it.

Tooth pains are some of the worst pains there are... no doubt.

Originally Posted by WolfMoon

As for me, ladies and gentlemen,

Life isn't better, but I don't care anymore. I'm taking the goddamned bull by it's horns, wrestling it to the ground and kicking it in the fucking teeth. I'm not going to feel out of control anymore!

Grrrrrreat!!! (Not great that your problems aren't any better, but great that you are rising to fight them.)

[MrMaelstrom]

Solumina, if you want to help EPS with her toothache, punch her real' hard in the face That should do it (I can't believe I write these things for the sake of trying to be funny - God, I'm an arsehole).
I'm glad for your dad, winning such a hard battle is an amazing achievement, and I hope it gives you and your family the strength to win this war.
Of course you haven't seen surgeons. Why do you think they wear masks? So you never know which one it was and avoid malpractice lawsuits.
Damnit, I done it again.
I hope to God there is no hell.

Hummm... bit of a paradox there...

Maybe I'll just wish there isn't a hell (yes, I'm ripping it off the Hitch Hiker's Guide) :P

I've also been trying to send good vibes to DragonLiver, but either the angels censor my pornographic mind and the message is lost, or my tin-foil hat has finally started to work (so why do I still hear the singing voices? Oops, forgot to take the headphones off.)

"-What?

-What? What?

-What do you mean, what?

-I didn't say What, you did..."
:shock:

[Empty_Purple_Stars]

Thanks you guys..

(Cept for Mael for wishing violence upon my already unbearably sore face :P )

:shock:

I appreciate all the support, you guys are better than my comfiest bra..

( That was a 'support' joke )

:roll:

And Wolfie, I hear what your saying, I really do, I am so glad you found that place of power inside your soul. You deserve to be happy in every way humanly possible..

I hold fast to that same ideal most of the time, I am just so tired of being ill, I just cannot bear it some days. 1992 was when the accident happened, and thats a really long friggin time to be like this.

Things like this unbearable toothache, would be so much easier to handle, of my body wasn't so fucked up inside. It's so frustrating. I am looking at a lifetime more of corrective surgeries every few years, until I either die from old age, or they figure out a way to stop what keeps happening to me.

I am less than a year and a half and away from my Bachelor's, and another year after that I will have my Master's. I am so close to realizing my dream, and being able to provide for my Hellspawn, and it seems like everytime I take 1 step forward, I take 5 steps backwards.

I have missed soooo much school the last 2 terms, and even though my Professors and friends at school are very supportive, the sympathetic pats and glances make me want to scream sometimes..

I look in the mirror some mornings, and all I can see is a very sick, and very tired shadow of who I should be.

Its just more than I can bear sometimes, with everything else in my life that I have already lived through.

I have my good days and my bad days, and most of them am very grateful for the blessings I do have in my life.

It just hurts..Alot..

Meh...

Thanks for letting me rant as per usual..

Oh and Solumina?

I am glad things are looking brighter for your dad. That is wonderful news..

Hugs to All..

[Empty_Purple_Stars]

Well, you certainly never should say " It can't get any worse."

It just did..

The littlest Hellspawn had a check up today, and Manimal toook him in to get checked out.

We've just found that he apparently has a *sob* Heart Murmur...

And as if that wasn't enough, he also has Pnumonia..

He's Five years old..

He's being referred to a Cardiologist. We're waiting to find out what the soonest is we can get him in.

It's ju st to o much..

*WAIL*

[edible_eye]

i don't know the hellspawn's specific case but in a general sense - heart murmurs are rather common and rarely require intervention.

is there anything that stands out to indicate his heart might be stressed irregularly? anything that has made you wonder about his health - other than the current pneumonia? getting out of breath? losing color during strenuous play? him feeling like he can't breathe? anything?

[drgnlvr]

Sol, wonderful serendipity for your father. Someone is looking out for him. So good to hear.

Wolfie, go getum, grrrrl You're strong, and you have strong love at your side.

EPS. *hugs* I'm sorry about the Hellspawn.

I know this might sound strange...especially coming from me, but I had a dream last night about you. Can't recall the details, but the message was a good one. Or rather, it left me with a good feeling. I think something positive is going to happen by the end of the summer for you, and I think things will start to take a turn for the better then. At least, that's the feeling I was left with. Keep your fingers crossed.

Mael, much love to you! Now I know where some of those erotic dreams were coming from, recently

E_E...can I just package it up, and send it home with my ex? :P

I think more than a few people have been trying to send positive energy my way. I heard the Warrior's flute last night (He lives more than an hour away), and a blue jay chose to pay a visit on the tree right outside the balcony door, and stick around all day (A good friend's spirit guide is a crow, but it will show up here every now and again in the guise of any other corvid). The cats have been acting alot more lovey than usual. And the atmosphere in the apartment seems to be brighter, even with the overcast sky. And I was visited last night by a wolf (which only happens when my friend from Russia is worrying about me, or trying to comfort me).

I feel very loved. And very blessed to have such good friends.

[Empty_Purple_Stars]

Originally Posted by edible_eye

i don't know the hellspawn's specific case but in a general sense - heart murmurs are rather common and rarely require intervention.

is there anything that stands out to indicate his heart might be stressed irregularly? anything that has made you wonder about his health - other than the current pneumonia? getting out of breath? losing color during strenuous play? him feeling like he can't breathe? anything?

Sadly, I don't think it is an 'innocent murmur'.

He gets severely out of breath very easily, especially when taking a drink.

He gets tired very easy, and is quite often listless and tired for no apparent reason.

His color is often pale, and his lips often turn a pale dusky blue lately.

He has been profusely sweating at night, Has an EXTREMELY poor appetite, even for a five year old. And has actually lost several pounds, that he didn't have to lose.

I have spent hours reading up on the net since he got back from the doctor, and he has many of the symptoms for coarctation of the aorta. A hole in his heart.

I really don't know, but even the lower extremity pain he constantly complains of that we blew off is one of the symptoms for it. He complains of sore feet and sore legs, to the point he limps when they hurt him. We just thought he was being dramatic as kids that age are apt to be.

I'm just so worried I can't hardly think straight. So many things about him, make more sense now. I could kick myself for not noticing sooner. I kept saying something was wrong with him, but we just didn't think it was all that serious..

Plus they didn't call back bout the Cardiologist appt today, so Imma crawl up their asses tommorrow.

Thanks for your thoughts..

You too Dragon..

Cross your fingers..

:cry:

[edible_eye]

http://www.punchstock.com/image/imag...ge/is33030.jpg

here ya go, beautiful.

[AlKilyu]

Yeah EPS ditto. I'm sorry to hear about all this. Have you told your folks about Hellspawn yet? I am positive they'd help with the medical, yeah I'm like 98% sure on that. And I hope it is just that, and what IS there is fixable. Poor guy. Poor mommy.

It'd sure be nice if your infected tooth havin-ass would CALL me once in awhile!

Like tonite!

Or tomorrow!

Hell you have two weeks. I went to the doctor today (not ranting) and he said "muscle relaxers and physical therapy." I said cool, then asked about the muscle relaxers.
"Soma. Why, do you have a pro-" "NO! No...this Soma you speak of sounds just fine.

Soma rocks!

I then asked when I'd be going back to work. "When do ya wanna go back?" I told him because of all the new pain I wasn't in a ruish to do it this week so he said "Two weeks, see me two Wednesdays from now. If your work wants a letter I'll write it, or they can call, but I am not releasing you yet."
!!!
I think he is like that because, and EPS is proof, my boss called my room 15 minutes after I got back from surgery asking the password to our phone server. Bitch.

I should have sucked his dick.

[Panther]

EPS - I hope your hellspawn is okay. And you too. Toothaches are terrible, and so is being sick. Try nott o freak out too much abuot hellspawn's health (tough thing to do, I know), if you can.

*hugs* Things'll get better.

That goes for the rest of you, too. Glad they gave you meds for hte pain, Al.

I shall refrain from ranting once agian, but let it be known I am sorely vexed at my body at the moment.

[drgnlvr]

Soma? :shock:

Isn't that the drug of choice in "Brave New World"?

Originally Posted by Empty_Purple_Stars

Well, you certainly never should say " It can't get any worse."

It just did..

The littlest Hellspawn had a check up today, and Manimal toook him in to get checked out.

We've just found that he apparently has a *sob* Heart Murmur...

And as if that wasn't enough, he also has Pnumonia..

He's Five years old..

He's being referred to a Cardiologist. We're waiting to find out what the soonest is we can get him in.

It's ju st to o much..

*WAIL*

I can’t even begin to string words together that would impart any thin and falling far short of meaning to the immense measure of grief and hope and empathy, which my fingers do want for and struggle in the formation of, towards you and yours in your current crisis.

Jesus fucking Christ, 42 days and 42 nights of rain, a life’s work of clearing out all the goddamn mud, molding the mud in the formation of continents, people, all strange and beautiful flora and fauna, breathing your own version of life into the works, just to have it rain again for 42 days and 42 nights…just when shit is starting to pull together.

I hope your toothache gets better soon (and it’s that massive manimal meat stick causing you T.M. J. and knocking your teeth out of socket, so less sucky and more… :shock:

I hope a cure is found for your tummy, that your next corrective surgery actually corrects something, and doesn’t just alleviate it for a few months. meh.

But I’m really saving the bulk of my hopes, aspirations, and feelgoodbetternow thoughts toward the hell spawn in the vast expansive heavens of the empty purple stars…that one worry trumps the others…enough rain already, let’s have some shinny sun and let’s have a reasonably healthy and vibrant hellspawn for to save the world from muck and mire and mold us a better one.

Keep us posted?

[ghostposts]

All our prayers, positive energies and best wishes will be going out.

<hug><hug><hug>

We'll be looking for Hell Spawn updates. Keep heart, hon.

Al, if the soma doesn't work, keep trying.

[WolfMoon]

Wow, EPS, that's just devastating! I can't imagine how you feel, but I remember the thoughts roiling through my head after my son was born and they thouht he was havingheart problems. Hopefully things will get better. This too shall pass, no truer words were ever spoken. I hope the lil Hellspawn is alright. Sometimes holes in the heart get better with age. One of my cousins had a bad one when he was small, but he's a perfectly healthy young man now(14 I think).

It's very scary and I know how hard it is to keep your chin up, luv, but you've got Manimal and Al there to lean on. Not to mention all of us here! I'm hoping that they're able to actually fix you one day, as well. That's gotta really suck, babe. All that icky surgery. I'm sending much love and positive energy your way, love. I hope they can help the lil Hellion.

Jeez, everything seems so inadequate. All the words I can think to say aren't enough, to me. I wish life would get better, babe.

Al, if she doesn't call you: You call her. Make sure our girl's okay, alright?




Draggy, I haven't thought to comment on your rpoblem, but I've been sendingpositive thoughts your way. You haven't by chance run across either a bear or a chestnut mare have you? :wink:

[Panther]

I hate to beak in, and I do sincerely hope for the ebst news for your hellspawn, EPS, I can't imainge how hard it must be to think he's going to be sick and not know for sure if he is, or if there's anything that can be done.

But I think I'mg ogin to fail my English class. Not because I didn't dot he work, or did hte work badly. but because my computer won't register my mouse and keyboard as being there. The only hope I have of geting a passing grade in English is by turning in a portfolio of all my work.

All my work is on my computer.

And I have NO FUCKING CLUE how to fix it.

SOw hile I appreciate that my problems aren't half so pressing and terrible as those around me, I'm going to be in the corner wailing and beating my head against the wall for letting my computer get broken.

[Solumina]

I'm so sorry esp you really deserve some good luck right about now and I hope everything turns out well with you hellspawn

Panther computers suck like that just when you really need them something goes wrong, feel free to rant about them anytime

[Panther]

My computer works again. Apparently the bastard was having a hissy fit because I moved it.

Stupid Prima Donna.

[Corpus_Draconis]

EPS, I hope Hellspawn gets better. And I hope your tooth gets better. My mother had a bone infection after she got her wisdom teeth out. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you.

I'm glad you're taking control of things, Wolfmoon. Steering in life, as in a car, is a good thing. I liked your string of metaphors too.

Good that your computer works again Panther. Computers can be touchy beings some times, especially if they're running Windows.

Right now... I'm just trying to navigate my way out of the mire of end-of-semester assignments that have been piled on... trying to not slip into the "ugh I don't have the energy to care anymore" thing. *mouths along with Siouxie...*

[drgnlvr]

Draggy, I haven't thought to comment on your rpoblem, but I've been sendingpositive thoughts your way. You haven't by chance run across either a bear or a chestnut mare have you?

:shock:

Does a big-chested, chestnut-haired woman who has a username of Marallewellyn count? She stopped by tonight, and complained that my "guest" was poking at her while she was here.

I actually haven't paid attention to my dreams the past couple nights, because when I sleep, I'm dead, and it's still not good sleep. Seems that when you move large pieces of furniture that haven't been moved in three years, it tends to kick up some dust....and me without allergy meds, or insurance >.<

I'll keep an eye out tonight, though. Thanks, Love!

Right now, I think my problems are mild, and we should focus our positive energy to EPS and her precious Hellspawn.

EPS, hon...I -am- keeping a white candle lit for you. Much love and light to you and your family. *hugstight*

[TeapotScar]

Karma is so confusing. Case and point: In the past three days, I've had two flat tires. *However* I have a cute "almost-boyfriend" who thinks I'm a cute "almost-girlfriend"... And then on the other flip side, I just gave him mono...

Karma! Make up your mind! Or don't... cuz this is kind of fun.

[FenrisQueen]

I'll give you karma, tea.

So, anyone else have those high-society, caribbean traipsing upper crust stiff necked relatives? I do. My grandparents. Since I was little, they have tried to mold me to become the ideal granddaughter. Dancing Lessons, Cotillon, You name it, they've tried to put me through it. Thus you see before you the well adjusted individual I am today.
So, I'm getting older. My birthday is coming up, and my esteemed relatives are worried that I am not mixing with the right people. They believe it is time that I should start looking for a "prospective match" No lie. They actually said this. And when my mother let it slip that I am single as of two weeks ago, they SET ME UP. On a date . With a friend of theirs' son.
Behold the mighty Jacob. Complete with a "gods gift to women complex" and requisite sweater vest.

This is what I get for telling them I was a lesbian. (which, after polo boy, might not be such a half-truth)

[AlKilyu]

Fenris, are you gonna stick around this time? ^_^

[Granny-like_the_apple]

I might get kicked out of my house. For oversleeping on my mom's birthday. Which makes perfect sense, really. I mean, why kick your daughter out when you find her weed, or when she almost flunks a math course because she skipped so many classes, or when she almost gets suspended from school for missing so many classes, or when you find her in a motel room with a big ole bottle of vodka, when you can kick her out for sleeping late?

Perfect. fucking. sense.

Originally Posted by Granny-like_the_apple

I might get kicked out of my house. For oversleeping on my mom's birthday. Which makes perfect sense, really. I mean, why kick your daughter out when you find her weed, or when she almost flunks a math course because she skipped so many classes, or when she almost gets suspended from school for missing so many classes, or when you find her in a motel room with a big ole bottle of vodka, when you can kick her out for sleeping late?

Perfect. fucking. sense.

Perfect. fucking. sense. almost as perfect as my getting kicked out of my last place for lying about going to school...during my spring break. The one that did the kicking has a $500 a month pill habit...apparently three lies are worse than a drug addiction.

[Panther]

okay, so I'm gonna be gone for a bit.

I ust can't handle this crap anymore, and need some tiem with no distractions.

So if you don't see me, it's not becausse I've gotten pissed and stormed off, it's because I've gotten melancholy and gone off to ponder.

Hopefully I'll see you guys again. If not, best of everything to all of you.

Maybe it's time I rethought myself and tried a new angle. . .

Or maybe it's just time I quit pretending I don't need a real life and got my ass out of my computer chair and actually did something for once in my life.