Rant Thread

[LiUsAiDh]

Yeah, I generally get A*'s so it was a bit of a shock And my teacher had the fucking nerve to say it was 'encouraging' for when I can do another maths A level thing at the intended time. Getting one mark off is not encouraging.... it's awful. Ech, I'll ask her to appeal it.

[Sir Canvas Corpsey]

Sometimes I wonder if i'm meant to be alone all my life... this incredibly over dramatic and teen angsty I know, but I just feel like shit now, why are we allowed to develop an attraction for people who we know are eventually and unintentionally going to crush us?

[MollyMac]

OK, about the phone. It's been a long week. A really long week, and I am not in my best frame of mind. Too much stupid in too short of a time span. (Family, a friend situation, work drama). A lot of actual issues- and I can work with those. Real problems have real solutions if you blur your eyes enough. But there was a lot of bullshit and a lot of self-created drama has been fucking with my calm- things that have no solutions because the llamas want not resolution but continuance.

No. I am fucking done with it.

At any rate, yesterday, after a rough day at work I ducked out a little early to drive a back road and clear my head before Yoga class. I get a call.

Like a fucking idiot, I answer the phone.

Ghost of Christmas fucking past, I swear to you. Left field emu attack, no explanation. But a voice I had not heard in a while, just e-mail contact. Needing a ride. They were strung out on something, and not just a little pot or a beer. The scary shit that killed my brother.

I have no tolerance for this. None for the scary shit. None for the receational activities that impede the well being of others. Pot? Beer? Sure- but know your own limits and responsibilities. It's all just not for me.

OK, I'll take a beer, but you know what I mean. Tend your own sheep, don't let them wander into my garden.

So, it was the scary shit. Needing me to help them get more scary shit. Yes. I was called to go on a meth run.

Uh.

No.

Then they said the magic phrase- "You stopped being fun when you stopped partying."

The phone paid for that sin and transgression. Slammed it to the ground, and then it was a combination foot stomp (three jumps and I did not roll my feet) and Jig style grind foot-work on the asphalt at work. Looked down and said "Well... fuck. Now they think I'm mad at them."

What the fuck was that?!?!? You are one meth head lighter. I used to drink a lot, and I stopped for a long time to see if I had a problem. Stopping didn't phase me at all, but it sure as fuck seemed to bother a lot of my friends. I think some people use others to excuse and allow their addictions, enabling a comfort. My Diet Sprite was threatening to their calm. And so I wasn;t invited out as much, and slowly I found new friends who liked me when I was sober and not just a chipper drunk (a tall order. I'm not that likeable in the real world.)

But it was a reminder that I allowed myself to be put into unhealthy situations for no apparent reason, and it reminded me that I didn't have many real friends until rather recently. Funny what shelling off insecurity does for you. You couldn't pay me to be a cute 20 year old again.

Then I went to Yoga.

Then I went to Best Buy, phone in pieces in hand. The lady at the door took one look at me, one at the technological carnage in my hand, and came over... "Oh, Honey...." and... she... hugged... me....

God as my witness, I did not know what to do. But she led me to the phones and the gal that helped me was awesome. Joked about my antique of an old phone... "No camera... no e-mail... wow... This is what we used to talk on..."


But after the rebates, phone plan continuance and a pity-waiving of a lot of fees, I have a new awesome PDA/phone that I paid about seven dollars for, but that I am too dumb to use effectively. It has a touch screen. Nipples work on it.

[HumanePain]

Molly...even when you rant, you are so fucking awesome.

[Solumina]

I love Jake but sometimes I really just want to punch him in the head. We are college students and neither of us has a ton of money (sure my family has money if I need something but my parents spent 18 years making sure that I knew how to live within my means so I'm not about to buy stuff that my mother would have to pay for unless I don't have the money for something essential like food or rent) but he just can't seem to get that we need to pay attention to our budget. He wants to save money for some up coming events and since I was better at math I did a rough estimate of what percentage of his paycheck should go to fun, needed purchases, and savings and did the same for myself. The problem is that he keeps "needing" stuff. A month ago he bough a desktop, which he didn't have the money for so he used a credit card (after necessary spending he has about $300 left per month so the $700 desktop is going to take a bit to pay off). Now he has decided that we need some more storage in our apartment and he bought $95 worth of furniture that we "needed." As I mentioned we are college students, we have one of the most fully furnished apartments that I have ever been in (given it doesn't all match but the point is we aren't doing too bad. Before he went out and got these things we already had four bookcases, a desk with some shelving, a tv stand with built in shelving and storage, and two storage trunks and that is just the living room, we aren't exactly wanting for places to put stuff, we just need to go through what we have and get rid of stuff that we don't need (and most of the unwanted stuff has ended up in the living room) but that he hasn't had the time to take to the thrift store (I say he because he said that he would do it but I have told him that it would be taken care of by Monday whether he did it or not) so it has just been sitting there. I do like the two units and eventually I would have really liked to get them but in my mind when you have money on your credit card that is really where any extra money should go, not to mention that he still wants to save up money. On top of the large stuff he is constantly spending small sums of money that are adding up. A big part of the problem is his job, he essentially works campus security and gets to wander around as long as he doesn't go out of range of the radios and frequently he will wander off to get some food and something to drink which would be fine if it was every now and then but prepared food always costs more than making it yourself and when you factor in the fact that I could make food for him (and I nearly always offer to make extra when I fix dinner so that he can take it with him to eat later) for about $1.00 instead of the $8.50 that his meals cost that adds up to over $35 every two weeks.

I just worry about what will happen when he is done with school and his parents are no longer there to help him out with bills. Not to mention that I don't want to live in an apartment for a long time, once I'm out I want a house, nothing big or fancy, just something in a safe neighborhood but I don't know if he will be financially stable enough for us to buy a place. He will be graduating at the end of this year and I will still have another year left so his plan is to get a higher paying, if less rewarding, job in that year and save up money. Hopefully I will be able to get a corp job in human resources when I get out (shouldn't be too hard considering my course of studies as well as the job market in the area), I will also be getting a substantial amount of starter money from a fund that my parents set up a long time ago. So if everything goes according to plan getting a two bedroom house in a nice area should be easily doable, but if Jake keeps buying things that we don't need, with money that we don't really have, then the whole plan comes cashing down.

Maybe I'm just freaking out because this is his last year before leaving school. It just makes everything seem so much more eminent and I keep being unable to think of what consequences of everything that we do will have on our future.

Oh well, at least he packed his meal for tonight, and I honestly can't think of anything that our apartment needs (other than some sew weatherstripping but maintenance is scheduled to take care of that) I suppose that I can stop freaking out and just keep trying to teach him how to save money (you know you would think that the person who grew up rather underprivileged would be the one who could pass on things that he didn't need, not the little princess who never wanted for anything, then again I suppose there is a reason why my parents were so well off and I was lucky enough for their habits to rub off on me)

~wow did not think my post was nearly so long, least I feel better now~

[LiUsAiDh]

My ankle is in agony for no reason, I havn't even walked quickly today ffs.

There I was, putting the mangetout back into the fridge, and wham, fuck! So I'm hopping around the house between the computer and the first aid cupboard at the mo, and if anyone's got any advice on what to do with it, other than strapping (none in the cupboard - typical) or what could be wrong with it, that would be great. :S

[Mir]

Yeah, and I call bullshit on the following statement.

"Molly: I'm not that likeable in the real world."

I bet you're nicer in the real world! I saw your MySpace bulletin, and was just about to send you my number! =D

[Solumina]

Originally Posted by LiUsAiDh

My ankle is in agony for no reason, I havn't even walked quickly today ffs.

There I was, putting the mangetout back into the fridge, and wham, fuck! So I'm hopping around the house between the computer and the first aid cupboard at the mo, and if anyone's got any advice on what to do with it, other than strapping (none in the cupboard - typical) or what could be wrong with it, that would be great. :S

If it is still hurting I would wrap and icepack in a towel and put on you ankle (frozen peas/berries work wonderfully if you don't have an icepack) and remember to keep the ankle slightly elevated to keep swelling down.

[Methadrine]

It pisses me off enormously to see the country who fought the hardest to crush fascism is turning into the rolemodel of said system.

Just look at this ridiculously silly article.

I mean.. COME ON! Where the bloody knickers of a presbyterian nun do they find such clueless people?! And how the hell do they get into the police force?!

[Bete Noire]

Fucking stupid wankshits. This country is going downhill.

[Duane]

This country has been going downhill for a while.

[Solumina]

Yeah, yeah it is

[Raptor]

Violent drunks.

So I go to the pub with a few people, head over to Tesco afterwards to get picked up. While standing there a group of shaven headed guys come over. Start talking to themselves:
"He's wearing black"
"I don't like black"
"Fucking (insert racist term)"
"lets smash their teeth in... with this"
*grabs shopping trolley*
Walk past us and try using the trolley to smash a cash point. Then come back and try asking for a lift.
Me: "No."
"What's in your pocket?"
"Nothing"
"And that one?"
"My phone"
"Show us"
"No mate"
"Show us, I ain't no (racist term again), come on, white boy to white boy"
"Nah"
*Drunk guy goes for my pocket and gets his hand crushed*

Unfortunately that's a fairly common sort of event.

[Underwater Ophelia]

My mom is in the hospital again.

[Raptor]

I hope she gets well enough to leave soon. What's she there for, if you don't mind me asking?

[Underwater Ophelia]

Originally Posted by Raptor

I hope she gets well enough to leave soon. What's she there for, if you don't mind me asking?

A concussion, pneumonia, and tendonitis in her arm.
i.e., a stroke that they won't diagnose.

[Solumina]

Yeash I'm sorry, I hope everything turns out okay

[Underwater Ophelia]

It's all gravy.
The world still turns.

[Raptor]

Why won't they diagnose it?

[Underwater Ophelia]

Originally Posted by Raptor

Why won't they diagnose it?

Not sure.
And of course, I'm not a doctor, so what the hell do I know?
It's just EXTREMELY odd to have a concussion and "tendonitus," and then have pneumonia set in.

[HumanePain]

Originally Posted by Methadrine

It pisses me off enormously to see the country who fought the hardest to crush fascism is turning into the rolemodel of said system.

Just look at this ridiculously silly article.

I mean.. COME ON! Where the bloody knickers of a presbyterian nun do they find such clueless people?! And how the hell do they get into the police force?!

Only the SWAT Team is allowed to wear them, but they don't have enough for everyone on the team, so they confiscate them. Here is proof that somewhere in the world there is a poor SWAT officer who must do without and must shoulder shame for the rest of his life for being recognized:
http://www.moonbattery.com/archives/elian_gonzalez.jpg


So please, donate your balaclava today to your local SWAT! Then we can have happy SWAT officers such as these:
http://www.reason.com/UserFiles/Image/camppt.jpg

[Crying_Crimson_Tears]

Dinner is cooking in the oven, and it smells soooooo good.

I am very hungry right now.

[LetheanBlacklight]

What's cookin', doc?

[Crying_Crimson_Tears]

Roast with carrots and potatoes.

Then I'm going to bake an apple cobbler for dessert.

[Delkaetre]

Meth- we have a copy of War On Terror in the house right now.
*runs and hides*